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nearly at the end
I have 7 zaps to go - the boosts on the tumour site.Just as well - my nipple is really burnt and also the crease under my breast. Good they don't get any more.My radiotherapy cream from our local naturopathic chemist is excellent and has kept my skin moist and protected on the whole. The onc at the clinic is very pleased with the result to this point.
It's going to be good not having to drive in every day for treatment - just once every 3 weeks for Herceptin till June.
I seem to be on an up - the dark "what if" thoughts have vanished for the moment so I'm happy with that.
Happy New Year to all my pink sisters. May it bring better health for you.
magicmum
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- I found the tiredness so overwhelming and still haven't got my old energy levels back. Your husband sounds lik mine and I find hard to talk to him when he puts everything into his perspective. Been great to have this site to come have a chat on .
- I found the tiredness so overwhelming and still haven't got my old energy levels back. Your husband sounds lik mine and I find hard to talk to him when he puts everything into his perspective. Been great to have this site to come have a chat on .
Thanks so much for that Lorraine. Why is it that knowing someone else feels the same, and has BC and bad days, makes you feel better ? Supported I spose. I don't wish it on anyone, but I am so very grateful for all the ladies here who UNDERSTAND. I find it impossible to explain myself, even to my husband - bless him he puts up with all sorts of moods without a whimper, and would do anything to help, but of course he can't, and I can't even explain why to him. He is a much more pragmatic person than me, I envy that. He is able to sort his life into black and white piles, there's no grey. SO much easier to handle.
Today is better, very tired today - I think that is a common factor of my blue days too, very tired after. Interesting.
much love to you, fight the fight
magicmum
Hi Magicmum
Well firstly congratulations on reaching 60, I am really enjoying my 60's it seems that finally I can say and do what I want within reason of course. secondly I am pleased that the Tassie bushfires let you unscathed but of course very sad for the town. I have lived in tassie and know what a fire can do.
Now to the dreadful "what ifs" in my experience these feelings haunt us as time goes by. I have come to welcome them as it means i am here and i am still able to feel and with experience I know they will pass. Survinving a diagnosis of Bc is not as easy as it would initially seem. We ride an emotional rollercoaster of 'what ifs "and the fear of recurrence. I have taught my self to allow the feeling to come and go, if i feel bad, well that is as it is and it will pass. If i feel good, that is as it is and it too will passs.
So be as kind to yourself as you would be to a very dear friend in the same situation.
Find something wonderful in every day and enjoy every moment.
Lorraine
Thanks for the New Year wishes - it's nearly here. I can't believe most of 2012 has vanished without my noticing, so caught up in treatment I just lost the rest of everything.
I am happy, I'm alive. I plan to stay alive for as long as possible.
love
to all
magicmum (Keitha)
Hi magicmum
so pleased that you can see the end in sight. Its great to hear that you are happy even for the moment. Hang on to the moment and enjoy it you deserve to have some happy times.
Happy New Year to you with wishes for a healthy and prosperous 2013.
