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Rita1963
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11 years ago

Gloom lifting

The fog has lifted.  Here I am 4 months since diagnosis, Bilat Mastectomy, AC-T dose dense chemo with 2 remaining, radiation to follow.

But woke up a few days ago, started my day then realized "I'm bme iack" the old s re-emerging.  The all consuming thoughts of cancer have subsided.

Yes they dosurface but now can easily redirrect my thoughts.

Still tear up if by surprise someone offers me support or reassurance, as truely I do at times forget that I have cancer even though its pysically obvious.

I was told I would reach this point but really didn't beieve.  It is as I was told one morning you wake up and you know you can get though this.

Rita x

P.S. I know there will be some steps back in the future but at this moment moving forward.

 

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  • yetbeung's avatar
    yetbeung
    Member
    11 years ago

    I'm at a very similar place to you. Even though my treatment is over now, I used to get confused at times about why people were enquiiring how I was going or if I was ok - I would think, "Why wouldn't I be? ... Oh yeah, that's right..."

    It took me a while to feel like myself again, but you're right, it does eventually happen! My surgeon said to me once that after a while, the only reminder of cancer will be a yearly appointment, and even then you'll need the reminder or you'd forget to go! I laughed it off at the time, but it's very right. 

    Radiation made me feel a bit "down" , as in quite tired, which got frustrating as I travelled quite well through chemo. They will tell you everything before you start it, but I didn't realise exactly how tired I would get. Physically, radio was harder for me than chemo, and I felt more like I was being treated for a condition. But, it does end! I finished in early June, and am, as you say, moving forward! Best wishes for the remainder of your treatment :-)