Hi @kmakm - I've been up since 4am, back to bed at 10:30am and up again at 11:30am - get where you're coming from!
I'm hard to overstep with... all body hair intact as well - just seems to have slowed down to a crawl. While I'm pleased that the eyebrows are there, disinterested in the pubes, I'd quite like the rest of the body hair to fall out. I haven't been able to shave under one arm since before Christmas!
My sister was 10 years older than me and always had some issues but they got serious around 15. She was bipolar - manic/depressive, or whatever label they like to use now. She was very bright, charming and while not vindictive, could be extremely manipulative to get what she wanted and Mum couldn't refuse her anything. Diagnosed with breast cancer at 32 and died at 45. Strangely enough, when her physical health was an issue, the mental health problems seemed to take a back seat (and I mean that seriously, not that there was any pretence involved). I lost my Dad when I was 13 and then lost my sister and Mum within 12 months of each other so I know what you mean about losing your childhood memories and grieving for it - for me there is no-one left to remember "our" family.
And I wonder if part of my reluctance to confide in a psych person stems from my sister. I went along to one of her appointments when I was about 16. Even then, I knew her psych was a dodgy as hell. He was struck off a few years later.
It must be so hard for you with your sister's kids, trying to give them stability and then having to tell them and yours about the cancer. My kids never got to meet my sister but they've always known that was due to breast cancer so that was really hard when we had to tell them.
I wonder if we need a group for "living with stress and letting it go"? The problem is that no-one would want to take on the task of managing it!!