Cold Cap Experience

@kmakm I know your counsellor would have told you that you're still grieving but sometimes with everything else it is hard to remember to let yourself do it.  And I remember when I was diagnosed, the first thing my GP said to me was that it didn't matter what survival statistics and evidence I was given, losing my sister to this was always going to be the reality for me.  I'm almost fully convinced that 4 years of stress brought this bitch of a thing on so I'm trying to let go of crap as much as possible - not sure I'm ever going to be completely successful.  My Mum had a saying that we used to tease her about...when she was unhappy, she was "as miserable as a bandicoot'.  I can tell you that there have been some real miseries of bandicoots around here the last couple of months.  And my worst secret...my older sister was diagnosed at 32 and died at 45; my Mum died almost a year later to the day (anniversaries around my first chemo date) - I find myself jealous sometimes of my sister for having Mum to turn to during those years.  How sick is that?