It is six weeks since I had my surgery - skin sparing bilateral mastectomy and DIEP flap reconstruction. I am recovering really well, with no problems at all. Of course I was sore after surgery but improvement was noticable every day. I was only having panadol for pain relief (after morphine for 1st 24 hours) which was very effective. The pathology found that I had a second cancer which had not shown up in my mammogram/ultrasound and follow up ultrasound/biopsy. Both cancers were invasive, oestrogen and progesterone positive, about 17 mm and rated as Grade 3. Because of this I will be having 4 rounds of TC chemo, starting on Monday 4th Feb. My other breast showed signs of benign changes which may have caused some problems in the future and my breast surgeon has said that I made the right decision on having both breasts removed.
I have absolutely no regrets at all regarding my decision. I have not been emotional about having my breasts removed but I think that having an immediate reconstruction helped as I did not wake up to the visual difference of no breasts. I also think that having had breast cancer previously has in some way prepared me for going through this again.
I will be having a PICC line in my arm for the 3 months of chemo as my viens are in poor condition. This is a relief as finding veins became a major issue last time round and it is something that I have been quite anxious about. My chemo cocktail will be different than last time and I am told that things have improved in the last 10 years. I can only hope. You never know what side effects you will suffer until the treatment begins. I do know I will lose my hair again - although it is the most visible side effect I don't find it as bad a some of the more invisible ones. For me, facing chemo again is more of a challenge than going through surgery.
After chemo I will probably be having aromatase inhibitor therapy, although this is subject to how my body reacts. My treatment last time involved Tamoxifen however it caused me to develp polyps in the uterus and I had to stop taking it. I was then tried on one of the aromatase inhibitors but it also caused some problems so my oncologist will be very cautious with this type of treatment. I will cross that bridge when I get to it.
What a journey so many of us have to go through - all taking a different path and landing in different destinations. It certainly is a challenge and I can only hope that for all of us there is sunshine waiting. To all who read this - take care and be brave. Linda