reflection & where to now?

Oh Jo you poor luv, you have been doing it tough now for quite a while.  With everything that has gone on in your life you are allowed to be feeling all over the place.  I know I am and I haven't had to endure half of what you have.

I have finished chemo in July and finished radiotherapy a few weeks ago but then got bronchial pneumonia which I am now getting over that as well.  I am now back home and pretty much on my own with hubby working away.   My moods chop and change every day all day. Sometimes I luv the time on my own and sometimes I just feel so lonely and isolated.  I have an appointment for the hormone clinic in Perth coming up shortly as well.  I was on Tamoxifin but got changed to Femara.  I am a lot older than you and I  feel it is even tougher on you because you are so young.  I have lived a large part of my life already, yours is just beginning with getting married etc.  You have so much to look forward to my lovely.

I really  hope you have a lot of wonderful support around you and I know you do in Merrylee and Jo and I am sure your hubby and I am glad that you felt you could turn to your pink sisters to be there for you also and offer you as much support as possible.

You are stronger than you know sweety cause if I was you and been through what you have  I don't honestly know how I would have done it.  BUT you have done it and you are working through your feelings.  You are allowed to have these feelings as long as you are doing something about them and not just letting them fester and you are doing that so well done.  The fact you are having some good mood swings and they are not all bad is also a good sign.  You will get through this precious I am sure and you know all your pink sisters will be here rooting for you to get well and have that beautiful smile on your dial all day every day.

Sending you lots of loving hugs your way today and every day.

LOL, Mich xoxo