Sunday 30th October 2011
This would have to be the hardest day of my life
My mum sadly passed away and could not fight her 3 year battle with breast cancer anymore... I cant describe the feeling to see her there laying in the hospital bed knowing her heart is not beating and she is no longer alive. I layed next to her for about 3 hours before the nurses said they needed to take her away.
i cried and cried- that was goodbye, that was the last time i was going to see my mum.
The Funeral was the hardest , actually no the cemetary. When the coffin lowered into the ground my heart just sunk the tears that poured from me and my sisters eyes could fill a thousand rivers!!!!!
I hope you are at peace now mum. I hope you are free of suffering... No longer in pain having to take all those drugs and go through all those painful procedures.
Today i cleaned out mums kitchen cupboards and filled a HUGE box full of drugs and it was over filling i filled a laundry basket aswell full of morphine, oxycontin, endone, tykerb, steroids, xloda, zaffron, maxilon thats just a few to name there was so many more... I took them all back to the chemist so they can dispose of them and just get rid of them.. it was so depressing looking at it all.
I miss you mum I LOVE YOU so so so much. You were and no actually ARE my best friend
