Day 7 after third chemo, looking back I am emotional again. Slept almost all weekend, well on and off. Just when I thought I knew what was going on my meds will be changed for the next three cycles. So goodbye FEC100 thanks for what (hmm). Yeah whatever you did to kill this tumour. Hello taxotere for next cycle.
My oncologist likened it to a boxing match, constantly being punched by the left hand, the tumour knows what to expect, so lets change strategy and change to right punch.
I have heard the 'Half way there - living on a prayer' song from Bon Jovi. Many people have used it as their half way thru. chemo song. But I am not living on a prayer. I am fighting to find my new path in life, using all my emotions and strength. Life will not be the same as it was, that is not what this journey is about. I haven't quite worked it out yet. But belive me I will share it with all of you as soon as i get it.
My thoughts and emotions are scatty today. Considering my body is filled with chemicals and toxins I have a pretty good excuse. Tomorrow my friend is taking me to the 'Look Good Feel Well' workshop.
For the first time ever, I am not looking forward to school holidays and sharing time with the children, well certainly not for a whole two weeks. I just find their abundant energy so draining. So hubby will take the second week off and keep them entertained. As that is when I start my taxotere so I have no idea how I will come out of that. Oh unless there is a change of plan and i have surgery to remove the tumour that week instead of at the end of chemo.
Oh well thats it for me ladies, feeling nauseas got to go eat something.
