Losing your hair

I am on the precipise of losing my hair. I have mentally been trying to prepare for it, it is now day 17 since my first Chemo hit. You see I started blow drying my hair at age 13, and devoted 20 years of my life to Hairdressing. The first 4 years I won a lot of awards, and thought about nothing else at the end proudly taught at TAFE.
So this vain attatchment I have with my hair is something I am battling with. I had to get a driver licence for Tasmania, and had put it off, but rushed in yesterday, thankful I still had a full head of hair. But the amount that started coming out 3 days ago, is obvious at home.
I was desperate to get a wig before it fell out, but unlucky to get cancer at Christmas time, and the one service available - is on holidays, and the stores to order from closed until the 8th Jan.
So between telling myself to harden up and dont be so pathetic, I have a few selfish tears.
I did hope I wouldnt lose it, and at least I had it for Christmas. I went out and bought 4 scarfs yesterday. I have a fabulous sense of humour, and Im sure it will come back.
I know I am focusing way too much - I know I will man-up, but now and then, its very upsetting! Its my bloody hair and I dont want to lose it!
I will be ok, Im just having a winge! But wow, its happening!