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SoldierCrab
9 years agoMember
- I M 56 years old, my husband, Nic, and i are parents/careres to a mentally, autistic son 36 years old...the worry of him znd then the worry that i will be gone and hubby is left with it all...no guarantees in life for sure.....i am usually an upbeat get on with it type of girl but yhis recent tur in events is knocking me....HATE IT...dont do sick very well let alone dying added to that..April 30Comment
- I find it hard dealling with my family....its that over emotional involvement and soppy sentiment that i find difficult to deal with...now that my cancer has cranked up a notch its like..."how do we treat her, how do we do around her...for fuck sake, i'm not dead yet, treat me like normal...i find family, whilst they want to be there, are the biggest obstacles to contend with.April 30Comment
- After 15 years of i guess remission, reccurrence diagnosis in May 2015 with mets in spine...plodded along nicely just on femera with monthly injection of xgeva...has now kicked up a gear where having severe breathing issues...cloudy/fluffy lung (left) ....awaiting to start chemo, 10th May, but the way i feel, i reckon i wont make it.......I'm fine just sitting and doing light stuff but any form of physical exertion, well lets just say i struggle....I'm starting to think just let me die....should i pbone incologist and tell him how i am with a view to getting the chemo started now or bide may time and just put it down to being anxious?.....this fucking thing is so deceptive, as i look fine and well on the outside...sitting here at 3.30 am as cannot sleep.