Wish the rollercoaster would slow down
Friday I found out my head MRI results - there are 3 new teeny teeny tiny spots. Not again!!!! Friday was lots of tears of sheer frustration. Still doing Abraxane chemo for the bone mets & tired of being tired, not being allowed to drive & I miss working.
Radiation Oncologist wants another head MRI in 8 weeks. Possibly will need another one off session of Stereotatic Radiosurgery to zap the buggars. The thought of being locked in that head mask again for 50-60mins for treatment causes severe anxiety. Last time sedative didn't work as well due to my high anxiety & I had to also take high dose of steroids for brain swelling due to intensity of treatment. The mask is so claustrophobic & last 10mins the pain is so bad. The staff are beyond awesome & do everything in their power to help get me as comfortable as possible & settled, they are so, so understanding. When the time comes will speak to my awesome radiation oncologist to see if we can devise a plan to make me calmer. So thankful he is the nicest most caring man who really listens. I will do this, I can do this, just another hurdle. Back to chemo Tuesday. Big girl pants back on & focusing on being strong & positive. Thanks everyone for allowing me to vent. Just wish the rollercoaster would slow for just a bit!
Radiation Oncologist wants another head MRI in 8 weeks. Possibly will need another one off session of Stereotatic Radiosurgery to zap the buggars. The thought of being locked in that head mask again for 50-60mins for treatment causes severe anxiety. Last time sedative didn't work as well due to my high anxiety & I had to also take high dose of steroids for brain swelling due to intensity of treatment. The mask is so claustrophobic & last 10mins the pain is so bad. The staff are beyond awesome & do everything in their power to help get me as comfortable as possible & settled, they are so, so understanding. When the time comes will speak to my awesome radiation oncologist to see if we can devise a plan to make me calmer. So thankful he is the nicest most caring man who really listens. I will do this, I can do this, just another hurdle. Back to chemo Tuesday. Big girl pants back on & focusing on being strong & positive. Thanks everyone for allowing me to vent. Just wish the rollercoaster would slow for just a bit!
