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pennyy
13 years agoMember
Well...crap
How much crying can one person do?? Without the headaches that follow??
I know there is a song called "I don't like Mondays", but I've now found my own reasons to not like Mondays. It was a Monday that I found the lump, a Monday that a diagnosis to cancer was confirmed, a Monday that I had all my chemo treatments, and this past Monday, I was diagnosed with secondary cancer in my lung.
Looking back, perhaps it's because I didn't make the lifestyle choices a cancer diagnosis should cause you to make, maybe I didn't take it seriously enough, maybe I should have been more insistant the doctors remove the lymph node under my sternum that they weren't sure about, maybe the meditation would have helped, maybe, maybe, maybe,
I will start chemo again (on Monday), and believe that whilst there will be no end date for chemo treatment, I plan on doing this for at least the next 20 years - the hospital might get sick of me, but I don't care, I will still be here (or there!). With all the positive energy I feel around me, I know that the symptoms troubling me now, will subside, and I will feel much better and will have the energy to live my life again.
My friend wanted me to start blogging again, perhaps this time, I will stick to it more routinely and reach out to the people who know exactly what I'm going through - to cut out the things in my life that aren't working, and to embrace the things that make me happy.
I look forward to writing again, maybe after first new treatment
xxx
28 Replies
- janet_sMember
So sorry to hear your news, but glad to hear that you're keeping a positive outlook! Keep on being the strong woman that you are and find ways to laugh in spite of it all.
Sending positive thoughts your way,
Janet
- AnonymousNot applicable
Hi Penny, great to hear you got off to a good start with the chemo. How often do you need to have chemo? I have chemo 2 weeks on and then one week off. The cough and shortness of breath sounds very debilitating! :( I'm glad they managed to drain the fluid from your lung...hopefully that will help with your cough and breathing. Keep in touch Penny, take care Celeste?
- helen_anneMember
Hey Pen!
Good to hear the chemo is starting wasn't too bad. I so totally understand how you feel about being comforted about others having lung mets.
Although I don't have mets I can understand how you feel about this. For me I can relate this to the first time I showed up to chemo as an outpatient - I was surprised and shocked at how many other people were waiting in line (so to speak) but also comforted because I didn't feel alone.
I believe this is how you're feeling about connecting with others with mets.
And while some of us don't have it, I do hope you'll still keep in touch darl as I really want to keep track of you and hopefully meet up for coffee and a chat.
Where are you having chemo? If it's at Box Hill it's a breeze for me to get there but I'm happy to travel to meet you.....have you joined the Effervescent Easties yet? Sorry you ended up staying overnight but at least all that yukky fluid got drained - you must be feeling better for that.
You take care
luv Helen
- pennyyMember
I know it's not nice to say I'm glad other people have lung mets, but it is comforting to me. I was HER2 negative, so no herceptin for me. I'm taking a combination of carboplactin and gemcitabene (or something like that). I've had a bothersome cough for about 8 weeks now, that is really bringing me down as the coughing leads to shortness of breath and means I really can't do very much at all. Am hoping the chemo kicks in sooner rather than later and breathing and no coughing will become my normal.
chemo wasn't too bad on Monday, although they did an ultrasound to check the fluid levels on my lungs and drained 600 ml from the right side, so I had to stay overnight.
I keep thinking I should write a post on all the stupid reasons I got breast cancer in the first place, and now a follow up on stupid reasons I got secondaries!!
How often are you having chemo?? good that its working,
good luck
Penny
- AnonymousNot applicable
Hi Penny,
I just wanted to jump and send some more positive energy your way (it looks like you have a lot around you though) and I hope that you got through your first Chemo okay on Monday?
I wanted to add to Amanda's comment about connecting with others who have secondary bc and give you some links:
- You can join the online support group - Women Living with Advanced Breast Cancer: http://www.bcna.org.au/group/4218
- Order a copy of the Hope & Hurdles from BCNA: http://www.bcna.org.au/hope-hurdles-pack
I think your friend was right to keep blogging about your experiences and I only hope you can take strength from this support.
~Daina
- pennyyMember
thanks Helen, that would be good
Penny
- helen_anneMember
I'm so glad you found each other and can hook up via the facebook group or Thursday girls (if you choose to join it Pen).
I'm going to create the "Easties" group tonight - simply ran out of time the other day so I hope to see you both joining.
Take care you two.
Luv Helen
- MandaMooMemberHi Penny - I've added you to the group. :-) Amanda
- pennyyMemberHi Amanda, I have just tried to join the FB group. I thought it would let me send a message to administrators but it didn't, my FB name is penny young
- pennyyMemberThanks for that, I will definitely keep it in mind