Stable - schmable...

Thanks everyone for your kind words and wishes.  Stable is good - I know that - as Tonya often says - it is often funny what becomes good in Cancerland.  I have pulled my camera out again this weekend for my daughter's birthday party and had a bit of fun doing that.  For a few days this week I even almost forgot that I apparently have cancer.  

I won't forget my friends here and will still visit here but for now I need a bit of a break from it all.  I would hate to be on my deathbed wishing I had spent less time worrying about dying and more time living so I am just going to get on with living.  

I see taking this next step in my stride an important part of my healing.  I still believe in my capacity to overcome this disease - how that happens or to what degree I do not know but I must continue to hope that I can live a healthy, full and hopefully longer life.  I am driven to live fully by the desire to see my children grow until adulthood.  I don't choose to accept the statistics - I choose to tread my own path, to defy the odds, to live a life engaged, a life full. I don't know what is ahead.  I may very well die a premature death from this disease - if that is to happen - I want no regrets. 

Much love and light to the wonderful women here supporting and sharing.

Amanda xx