Hi lovely Amanda, You are such a "smart" lady. I too have "pulled back" a bit from being the cancer patient. I can't leave this site but I am not "taking on" any "new clients". I only seek out my "old" friends through "My home". I suppose it is the normal progression. Early next month is the 1st annniversary of my second diagnosis and after that date I want to "get on with it " a bit more. Sure there are hourly reminders but slowly and surely I am "leaving" bc behind - even if it is in my head. For my marriage sake - I know this sounds strange - I need to be "bc free" as my husband has not handled a second diagnosis very well. He really needs to seek some help but of course is very subborn. It is always very positive to have "things" to look forward to. I am so glad that you are going back to your favourite things. Lets all live in the NOW and enjoy each minute as it happens. Many blessings to you until we are in contact again. Enjoy your "freedom". XLeonie