We'll after a week and half of every test imaginable I am stating treatment today on abraxin ... I thought once I knew I would cope better but I feel all hope has gone and now I have to fight this with everything and I don't know if I. Strong enough to do it ... Now all I think about is my daughter and grandson it is only us 3 we have no other family I've always felt I need to be there for them and now I'm not going to be and if something happens to my daughter who will look after maxxy he is only 2 all it does it invade my thoughts ... How do you ever get through this .....