New to the Team- not exactly happy about it
Hi, 03Dec had a lump checked- invasive lobular cancer, left breast. 09Dec- MRI and spot detected right breast followed by biopsy- same cancer although non-palpable. 19Dec bilateral partial masectomy...
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HiCocoBean71 I am so sorry to hear about your diagnosis and each rolling wave of discovery that you encountered. That you found your way to this network is a good thing asarpie has wisely shared, you have come to a place where there will be people who have stood in your shoes and who will relate to your questions, your feelings and experience.
With your science and law combination you are doubly “blessed” (or burdened) with the ability to envisage multiple variables and probably an appetite for more information.
It sounds like you’ve worked out that how you’re feeling right now is not going to be sustainable: I salute your request to be put in touch with a psychologist.
arpie has mentioned the private groups you can join (I am in the invasive lobular group). These are immensely valuable, people are very generous and wise.
I found BCNA’s podcasts called “What You Don’t Know Until You Do” on the BCNA website helpful when my mind was racing. No disrespect to the speakers but they’re quite good to doze off to if you’re having trouble sleeping…
I just did a quick search and wondered if these two episodes could be helpful
Series 2 Episode 1 about anxiety
And Series 2 Episode 4 about dealing with metastatic bc
Your honest and thoughtful analysis of how your life is changing seems to be a secret sauce - it sounds as if adapting to new contexts is something you do, eg like your mid-career re-qualification and professional shift. Having said that I hear what you’re dealing with here is crummy and involuntary, so sending hope that, in time your adaptability might help.
Sending you lots of positive energy and support from the people around you to keep your spirits in hand and wishing you relief and Big hugs.
Thanks Tri I am in the ILC private group also. I am not sure what I have been looking at today has helped or hindered me, as all I keep thinking is about how short time is and the uncertainty of treatment.
My good friend works in oncology and keeps telling me one step at a time, and that there are multiple treatments available and new ones coming all the time......the science is helpful but the fear is too much for me to climb just now.