My story

We'll I made it to my sons wedding, just. My Gp said what was I worried about, was there any doubt that I wouldn't be there? Of course there was, I got diagnosed with a kidney infection 4 days before the wedding, it was pretty bad, but the antibiotics kicked in just in time. Everything went off wonderfully for them, I only had to look at my beautiful boy for him to understand my thoughts. He just knew that I wouldn't let him down. I now have a new goal to aim for. That is to have a wonderful holiday with my two brothers, their wives and my husband. We plan to fly to Hawaii and hop on a cruise ship to sail back to Sydney via Tahiti, in September. I am oh so looking forward to it, as we haven't had a sibling holiday together since we were little. I had to stop Xeloda whilst I was on antibiotics for three weeks as it was really hard to shake the infection, they threatened to put me in hospital if it didn't get better soon, thank goodness it worked. It was a wording time, was I going to get over this bug and how long was it going to take. Oncologist was adamant that all was good, but you just get that bad feeling deep down, just can't help it I guess, it's in our DNA to worry. Sammy, I only just noticed your comments, sorry but I guess you can understand how busy it's been for me the past few weeks. Two weddings - my sons and my nieces three weeks later. Thank goodness for a bit of Valium to give me a boost. Glad to hear that all is good with you, the bone strengthening injections are great, if you can have them, I reacted really really bad to the first one, so they had to stop them for me, now it's a daily tablet, but have to change brands from time to time as body builds up a resistance to them and they make me sick. But hey what would be the fun if I didn't put a curve ball into the lot every now n then. They always hold their breath with me when they change meds. I like giving them a run for their money, so to speak. I know how you feel about how people treat you, you don't have a physical disfigurement or tubes sticking out or hair loss, but bloody hell you feel like crap on the inside and your scans are road maps with stop lights everywhere, but what do they care, your normal looking and making it up, oh if only! I have a mother that still thinks there is absolutely nothing wrong with her (baby) daughter, I understand that it's hard for a parent to accept that there is something wrong with their child, but when I say no I'm confined to bed I mean it, I can't take you to the bank to get some money for you stick under the mattress. Lol. One day she will comprehend, I just hope it's sooner rather than later. :(. I hope you had a good day on 4th April. Secondaries always get looked over when it comes to a lot of things, To the rest of you girls, thank you for the upbeat comments, they mean so much and are appreciated, I am no one special, I am just like the rest of us with secondaries, fighting the fight, trying to hold it all together, staying as positive as possible for as long as possible, so setting little goals is good. Good luck to you all. May we all live long and give me all a run for their money!!! Stay strong