Sounds horrendous, its one thing to have a diagnosis of cancer but if you also have a fear of the procedures whether they be scans, needles etc that just adds to the stress of it all. I had several MRIs before my diagnosis because of a fear of the contrast IV where we had to abort the scan and I had to follow up multiple times despite my fears. I finally had the guts to take diazapam, don't know why it took me so long and since then I have been focusing on more meditative techniques. The experience really depends on the people assisting you through it though and I always communicate that I am a nervous patient. I have finally got there somehow and currently going through radiation treatment and have found the team to be really organised and efficient but still going at my pace. I hope you find a good doctor and can get the scans you need to go forward.
