Being a Voice

Thanks Mich for your comments - and I want to be clear that I don't begrudge anyone a whinge and this site is the place for it but i've kept it in for so long I had to get it out.  People are always telling me how brave, inspiring, accepting, determined......etc...etc... I am - well, I'm human and sometimes I just am plain angry.

I was just out gardening and thought - gee what I wrote was really Judgemental - who am I to judge someone else purely based on my own situation.  If I wasn't dealing with what I was, would I be the same?  Possibly - I too dreamt of moving on and returning to my old life - just now I can't - but I am OK with that.

And just like EBC'rs - I don't like losing hair either, or nausea, or fatigue, or hand foot syndrome, or scans, or waiting rooms, or constipation, or diarhoea, or skin rashes, or neuropathy, or cognitive difficulties but I have to make my peace with it, because it "is what it is" - I make peace and then do everything I bloody can to minimise it and more. 

I just feel we are silent too often - I found out recently that many EBC girls didn't realise that many girls with ABC are on chemo continuously - that we deal with this every day, in and out usually without too much complaint but we are all different, we all cope in different ways - it is not for me to judge and thank you for no judging me.

And I plan to be happy and healthy for a very long time yet - after my son starts school I have a wedding to plan (his! I should still be here lol!)

Ax