Back to being Terrified

Oh @Cate64 - I totally get you. The waiting is just interminable sometimes - hours seem like days. 

I have not been on the online forum for a few weeks except in the last few days - few issues that I will save for another post. 

I too am on rising TM watch - will know more next week when I visit my oncologist.

To scan or not to scan - that is the question  ;)

@Roo isnt is stressful??? waiting waiting waiting thats all I seem to do lately.

My tm's were up again & so a change of treatment was offered..... a hormone therapy trial at another hospital which would take weeks to set up & then ...... then I might not even qualify for it  OR Xeloda - a tablet form of Chemo that wont make my hair fall out... No guesses as to what I chose much, I think, to the Oncologists disappointment. There was also another hormone therapy I could have had..

Then she decided to send me for baseline Bone & CT Scans although she didnt expect to see anything much changed since Januaries ones, had those yesterday & now again... I am, waiting waiting waiting till Friday week for those results.

Its very freaky having a scan & watching it all come up on the screen. It was also a bit off putting when the bone scan people said you only had one in January its a bit too soon to have another one, there are risks in having too many. Seems your damned if you do & damned if you dont. Not having them & so potentially not finding a new cancer or having them & potentially creating a new cancer....

Hi Cate.....I just read your post - I was diagnosed this time last year and just recently got my latest scan results....It is SUCH a stressful time waiting..... I can't believe that my life has come to these three monthly blocks of awaiting results...I hope all went well for you...

Cate
I know how you are feeling I too are waiting D day. Its awful that this is our life now. I am four years in now yet still can not believe its me.  I don't have much wisdom to pass on just that I know the fear you have. One thing I have learned is try not to let cancer rule you. If we do it wins. Try to put good energy in your day doing other things to take focus away. Easier said than done I agree. Thinking of you  Kerri

Thinking of you. xxx

Oh Cate, youve been on my mind this week leading into tomorrow!!! We are all here!!!! Sending a massive hug and vibes for a good result! Hang in there!!! Just remember strength and courage you already have youve gotten this far!! You are human and its ok to crumble!!! let it out...one step at a time and just remember no matter what you are STRONG regardless of the result. Keep going and let us know how you go!!! xoxo

Will be thinking of you. 

Hi @Cate64 I thought I would say it is ok to have a cry, sometimes it helps us to relax a bit I found when I am awaiting results appointments if the tears where just there I would play some music I knew would set my tears off and  have a good cry then get up and go again 

Hugs and energy to help you relax and deal with tomorrow, 
Alice xoxo 

Hey Cate 
Am thinking of you and wishing you all the best for tomorrow.
Remember to breathe.....as someone else said smell the roses while inhaling and blow out the candles when exhaling....bug hug xx

You will be taking all our positive thoughts with you Cate.  You are not alone - we are all with you.  Jane xx