I am so sorry that you are having such a hard time of it @RedRose77 .... this bloody disease really mucks with our brains even more than our bodies (which is bad enough!), I reckon xx. It is a real emotional roller coaster.
That is terrific that you are seeing a Counsellor - it will definitely help xx Is there any way you can negotiate a break from work to 'find yourself' again? Or can you work from home, maybe on reduced duties?
Have you checked out Charlotte Tottman's podcasts yet? She is a BC specialist Psychologist, who had a double mastectomy & stayed flat - who'd been 'counseling' patients for years - but only realised just HOW debilitating a BC diagnosis is, when she was diagnosed herself! Start on No 13 (the first of the first series) then go back to No 1 - the first of the 2nd series. She is incredibly easy to listen to & relates to most things that we go thru too xx
https://soundcloud.com/bcna/what-you-dont-know-until-you-do-unlimited-episode-0-welcome-to-season-2Be kind to yourself, and take care xx Wishing you the best