What doesn't kill you makes you stranger. And strangely more able to cope.

Well, it's week two of Stay The Fuck Home and the strange is progressing. I've realised I'm doing an odd thing; behaving like I'm sick.

I've well and truly recovered from my treatment (as much as we ever do) but now I've got to keep giving myself mental slaps to remind myself of that. Being home isn't an issue, in fact I quite like it, but I need to stop this nonsense which is not easily explained.

There is absolutely nothing wrong with me, but the whole anxiety thing of wondering is going to cause me grief today has returned. 

I got laid off work, along with 5 other casuals. None of us have heard anything from our manager; not a call or email to see how we are coping. No information about whether we will be eligible for that latest round of funding through the JobKeeper program. Nothing.

Luckily, we are all in contact which is a great comfort, but the feeling of abandonment is nasty. Wondering what is happening. Feeling under threat and out of control. Catastrophising.  The constant scanning for signs of disaster. Stressing about finances (which is completely unnecessary) Wondering if I'll ever get back to 'normal'. Sound familiar?

I'm doing all the recommended things. Exercising, maintaining relationships, albeit through different channels. Keeping busy. Enjoying the weather. And stressing like mad.

I'm quite sure that I'm not alone in this--the whole PTSD business is real for many of us. It really needs to stop.

I'm still at school too. We are just waiting for the department or gov to finally pull the pin and let us stay home.

Great news, @kezmusc - and hope your daughter is neg as well.  This gave me a laugh the other day .....




I hope you can get that sick leave clearance, @Sister  - you should not have to put your own health at risk  :( 

Take care everyone xx
 

After watching "You can't ask that" last night, I wonder what 6 months is going to do @Zoffiel  A slow striptease?  I was thinking (while at the shops) last week, that this reminds me a lot of during chemo - many of us have already learnt the rules.  
I am really sorry for those of you who are struggling financially.  I believe self-employed can apply for the Jobseeker payment but you'd have to get on the site first to find out.  What a bloody debacle - more reactive governance rather than planning.
I, on the other hand, would love to be stood down at the moment once my leave runs out as my white cell count is a bit below the bottom line but being in a school (yes, the place that isn't subject to social distancing and doesn't have enough sanitising products), I'm expected at work.
We'll get through this, too!

Wow! Funny how influenza is a good thing in this situation. 
Take care and hopefully you will avoid miss the flu
Take care 

Good news, bizarrely! It’s a strange world but let’s take any relief where we can! 

@arpie @Afraser,

Test is back.  Covid neg.  Who'd a thought you would be very happy with Influenza A and rhinovirus....hehehehe.. 
Other daughter waiting in fever clinic now.  Probs the same thing though I would imagine. The joys:)

Silba, is there a place at the bottom of the online woolies page - home I think - that says ‘priority’? That one just gives you a place to write down what your problem is , no proof required, and being immune compromised is enough to get priority listing. 

Jeyes’ Hygienic Toilet Paper is what I recall. Yes, shiny and thin! I am delighted that the NT daily published several blank pages in an issue a week or so ago - for those who remember the use of squares of newsprint skewered on a string loop and hung in the toilet. 

Dear @silba,
Thinking of toilet paper and your reccommendation 'remember 5 sheets only'; who remembers the toilet paper in public schools back in the 60's. It was shiny and thin - aagggh!?** Nuff said