@lrb_03 thanks for sharing that...there was something very poignant that she said and something I have lived by and spoken constantly of since my 2nd diagnosis and that is...
"But most importantly, I need to learn (again ā sorry, Mum!) to help myself. To put myself first and not say āYesā to giving three talks in three different cities in one week, knowing Iāll crash and burn for two weeks after.
Time to just ābeā for a while and see what takes my fancy. Itās actually quite exciting!"
It's something I constantly have to remind myself to do because as women, mothers, daughters, sisters we just don't, it's not a natural thing...it's learned and something I had to choose...to put me first.
I had to leave the School I was at due to my inability to combat physically my role any longer, to only find myself out of Special Ed in a mainstream school, leading Behaviour Management and upskilling 20 ES. This is in ways more demanding and I get to the end of each week and think phew I made it. Nobody knows how incredibly hard it is to work full time after a diagnosis and subsequent treatments, most of us dont have a choice. I suffer alot of pain and nothing avails it, the worst is from radiation in 2011 and chemo in 2015 irreversible side effects that they dont tell you about. We are told to be grateful...and of course we are absolutely...but it would be so nice to be acknowledged by the medical profession that in fact they have a long way to go with treatments and quality survivorship for everyone.
M x
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