Where does the time go???
It feels like yesterday, I was sitting in the surgeon's rooms - it's breast cancer, she said. I cried.
That was 9 weeks ago, tomorrow. So much has happened since then. I want this to be a life-changing experience, and it has changed my life, but not yet, my habits. I still watch too much useless TV (but I love NCIS & Brothers and Sisters, Underbelly: Razor, Touched by an Angel - is mine coming soon??), and waste time on Facebook, Words with Friends and my little smurf village - how do I get into the habit of doing the things I really want to do in my life?? without it sounding like a Bucket List??
I love scrapbooking, but since I had children, I never make the time / find the time to do this - because I want them to be perfect. This is how I tell my story, and the stories of my children (only 2 & 4 yo) - I'm afraid if I dive too head down into getting all the scrapbooking projects done NOW, that people will think I am giving up - I'm not giving up, just trying to catch up on the things I wanted to do, but never did because I always thought there would be time, and there is still PLENTY of time - but I need to ask myself, "What am I doing with that time?"
I don't expect responses, I'm really just doing this for me (although my boss did suggest I write a book at the end of this drama, and this is one way I can record my thoughts as I go along), but again, I'm already 4 stories behind (episode 2 - to tell or not to tell, episode 3 - a week of testing or a testing week? and episode 4 - i've forgotten it's name - chemo brain already??)
this is my secret diary, my name's not Laura Palmer, but I still have a secret diary.
Until next time,
Me
PS: i'm looking at my profile picture, the hair is now off my head, kind of, and i'm a little jealous of the care free chick enjoying her friends 30th birthday - those are not my alcoholic drinks btw - i was driving!!!!