Where does the time go???

Hi Penny, It is something we have all experienced, that life shattering moment when we hear those few words, "sorry, you breast cancer". My breast cancer story began on November 25th last year, when I heard those very same words. I'm now nearing my first anniversary. In a nutshell, I've had a lumpectomy and sentinel node biopsy, followed 3 weeks later with a mastectomy and level 1 lymph node clearance, ( all clear ), 4 rounds of chemo, baldness, Tamoxifen, then Femara, and 10 days ago, had the other breast removed and the beginning of reconstruction with the insertion of tissue expanders on both sides. ( I didn't ever want to hear those words again ). Reading your blog reminded me of what I also thought I would do with my time. This was going to change me and I was going to do something really good with my life. I'm still waiting for my epiphany. I resigned from work. I had been thinking about this for awhile, and with chemo and the risk of infection, and my desire to do something important, thought this a step in the right direction. Well, 9 months later, nothing much has changed. I have gone back to work, in a similar job, and could go back to my old medical centre if I wanted to. I have held off, as I feel I would really be letting myself down as It would look like I've completely wasted this opportunity for "greatness". Like you, I now watch far too much TV, and manage to waste an enormous amount of time. My children have all grown up, and whilst one still lives at home, I do not have the work load that you as a young mum would have. I have become almost addicted to this site. It is good knowing that we are not alone in this cancer journey. Be kind to yourself, and spend your time doing what pleases you. I've decided to to give myself this year to get better, and then with my treatment and reconstruction behind me, I'm hoping that I will find what it is I'm searching for , so that I can make a difference. I'm glad you have found this site, and I'm sure you will get lots of responses. What is your cancer type, and treatment? Wishing you all the best. Love from Chris xxx