hate mothers day

yes i hate mothers day well i do this year im stuck here at home by myself im angry and weak and tired and teary and noone to talk to i even rang life line but hung up because there was a queue. i was supposed to go in the mothers day classic and i cant im too weak today and its wet anyway. everyone else has and they are all pumped up and happy and im here crying my eyes out and im so so angry with the world ive just had it my mum is miles away and doesnt even think to come up to me OH NO!! its always i have to go to her. im angry with her too. ill go there later when my hubby gets home from work . he was called in at 6am because someone was sick and there was nooone else. I have no children because a syupid bastard hurt me when i was young and i was never able to have kids ..i lost dad 4 weeks after i found out i had breast cancer earlier this year we were going to walk today together and now hes gone and im here and im rabbling and angry and sad and crying and i havent anyone to talk to. i wonder when ill ever be happy again im so fed up. sorry to unload but i just had to do something