Firstly I'd like to say THANK YOU!
Thank you to not just the couple of girlz that have allowed me as their contacts, but every one on this website, it has made things so much easier over the last couple of days to see peoples opinions and read their experiences, it makes it easier to cope with the speed bump that life has decided to throw @ me and know that I am not really alone.
My journey started with a routine trip to the doctors to get my depo shot, every visit my doctors hassle me to get a pap smear, every visit I turn them down but my doctor got somewhat cranky this time (could of been because it had been about 10 years since the previous one) with my long awaited pap smear she offered to do a breast check so I thought why not i am uncomfortable anyway. She found a fatty lump so two days later i was off to get an ultrasound. The fatty lump was nothing but the small calcified lumps that were discovered in my right breast made them a bit worried, so it was back to the doctors to get refered for a mammogram, i was not overly worried as back in 2000 i had both ultrasound and mammogram for cysts. It was not until i was leaving the diognostic centre after my mammogram and they told me that 'your doctor needs to see you tomorrow @ midday' that i started to worry........just a bit. Within a week i went in for a core biopsy, due to all the easter public holidays and labour day i finally was able to get in to see my doctor for my results two weeks later. By this time having two weeks to think about family history I was not surprised when she said it was cancer...........it was still a shock to hear it come out of her mouth. That was last Thursday, today I went in thinking this would be the first of many specialist/surgeon appointments, still a bit baffelled now and cannot believe that next Tuesday I shall go into the private hospital up the road and have a double mastectomy and the start of my reconstruction. Every time over the last couple of years when various close relatives went through their fight with breast cancer I thought what if i every get breast cancer? And every time I came to the conclusion due to family history that I would get em both taken off at once......... don't want to be lopsided........ don't want it to occur again. My specialist was glad that I brought it up first and said that is what she was going to recommend based on the history it was good to be on the same wave legnth, but i will miss my nipples (i can still stay positive and have a joke told mum today that eventually i will be able to wear singlets in the cold without it looking tacky) but i will miss them all the same, yes i know you can get them reconstructed also but to me that is not the same I may just get butterflies or stars tattooed there instead..........mum did not like this idea at all as my tats are the bane of her existence, but it is not as if she has to look at those ones (just the massive tats everywhere else :) The only other thing I will miss is my morning ciggy with my can of V, (yes I am one of those lepurs that you see in those quardened off zones in public spaces, but i am surprisingly fit I ride, jog and swing 18kg milk crates around most of the day @ work) but I know that I have to give them up by sunday this week and in the long run I will be better off for it. I am hoping to take sunday and monday off work, they owe me toil, hell i may just tell them i need to spend some final quality time with my boobs before i say goodbye to the old ones. Hope everyone else's journey is treating them well. Sorry to go on and on, hope i have not bored you all to tears but i needed to get this out. Thanks to all again
Kim
PS My specialist is almost certain that i will not need radium or chemo, and for this I feel blessed.
