Crappy then happy birthday

long involved story.  Monday at work the question was asked what do you want to do for your birthday Thursday and another girls Friday.  I said let’s do lunch and cake Friday. I have had more birthdays and that way it’s more about the other girl. Go me.  No no no I was told let’s do lunch Thursday and cake Friday. Otherwise it’s too much.   No worries. Thanks sounds great.   Thursday. I was all happy it’s my birthday. I am loving life and at 12.30 the birthday girl for the next day cake dibestairs and I said yippee let me get my bag.  She went what ? I am getting my eyebrows done lunch is tomeoeeow. Buzz hair flicker and double check. But everyone is busy so I buzzed hair flicker and she went oh yeah every one is really busy let’s do lunch tomorrow can you (me) send an email saying lunch is tomorrow.    I felt like a 15 year old girl at school that suddenly the butch pack didn’t like because I have brown hair.   Oh.   She said just forward the birthday email I was like I didn’t get the birthday email.    Oh.  So they forwarded the birthday email to me and I quickly typed.  Hey. We are going to do lunch tomorrow and I put my sunnies on and walked quickly out the back and Walked to the cafe on the corner and sat there eating a ham sandwich. Trying so hard not to cry my eyes out.  Thinking duck everykne hates me why why why. And I messaged my daughter and said what happened and she was like no mum. Maybe they are busy don’t take it personally.   It’s okay.     Anyway about 10 minutes later one of the guys came down to buy lunch and said what are you doing ? Why are you eating on your own it’s your birthday.   I said oh hair flicker said everyone was too busy.   It’s all good.  Then I said no it’s not all good.   I am trying so hard to be bright and bubbly and happy and helpful and now I don’t even want to go back to work.    He was awesome and said don’t feel like that.   So I told him about my Graves’ disease too and that I had a gp visit that night to get some counselling sorted because obviously I am losing it.   He recommend a natural thing Call 5htp I think it’s like a happy hormone.     So I go to my gp and he said why are you here your not meant to come here yet ?  Lol calm down.  It’s a quick one so he gave me the referral for some mental nursing I said I just don’t want to take any more drugs.   He said don’t take the one my guy friend said about but he will look into it he said because he doesn’t know it’s better. Not too.    Cut to friday  and we got to have a birthday lunch. The other girl is American and she replied to my birthday email saying thanks spazzi.  I was like wtf.  Anyway apparently in America that’s a term of endearment.  I was like see how emails come across because I was like that’s a bit harsh to my lovely birthday wish to her.    Lol we laughed about it and I said I am making it my mission to teach her more Aussie lingo. It’s going to be bogan Aussie but I think it will help her. She said why are you cussing I was like babe I am swearing not cussing. Anyway that was my woe is me birthday