ScorpionQueen
9 years agoMember
A grateful heart.....
From my Facebook blog..........
THE FINAL FRONTIER - RADIOTHERAPY
THE FINAL FRONTIER - RADIOTHERAPY
This morning sees the world wake to the sad and shocking news of another woman's bright light extinguished......Award winning sports journalist Rebecca Wilson......:'(
Once again this wretched disease has taken a beautiful soul way too soon.....Rest easy now Rebecca <3
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Everyday the enormity of this disease hits me in the face. I wake up to face my treatments.....to deal with the pain.....the limitations that it brings to my everyday life......But I am GRATEFUL.
It's a cruel, cruel game this disease plays. Giving you the absolute worst days of your life then teasing you with normality only to slap you back down again.....But I am still GRATEFUL.
Last night was a very restless night....awake again every two hours....the hot flashes were quite intense.....I was dreaming ALOT... I know it was of people that are important to me, but can't remember what actually played out....But I am still GRATEFUL
I am not quite half way through my radiotherapy treatments....my skin is starting change colour under my breast, my skin is starting to burn.....I look in the mirror to check my scars and the skin on the radiated side......I just sigh.......But I am still GRATEFUL.
I have woken feeling groggy and very, very tired....My chest hurts from the expanders....my skin is stinging from the radiation.....My joints ache and creak from the hormone blockers....But I am still GRATEFUL.
I have woken to see another glorious day.....woken to feel my pain...to see my scars.....to go about my new normal....to hear the birds sing....the dogs bark......to see the faces of my family and friends....
Only the Universe knows why some stay and some leave....For those left behind it builds us up....makes us stronger and more determined....makes us appreciate what we have.....
I get to fight another day....and fight I will!.....fight not only for me, my family and my friends but in the name of those you have taken from us.....
Good or bad, I am getting through another day.....
............and for that I am GRATEFUL
#FUCancer