Washing the grey out of my life....

It is such a difficult journey with so many bumps along the road. Depression can also be part of this awful bloody disease. Let your health professionals know how you are feeling and definitely see if you can see an oncology psychologist. I am still seeing one 12 months down the track of treatment. It is amazing how things come up even now. I had a lumpectomy and have lost about a fifth of my breast. Today I had a heart scan done and the lady doing it asked me to undress my top half completely. I was surprised at how uncomfortable I felt. Normally it wouldn't worry me but today I was just so aware of my scars and my misshapen breast. Goodness knows why. You will get through bit not unscathed. We become war weary. Take care. Karen xox

I TOTALLY know what you mean ! I'm still all taped up and in extreme pain from my surgeries a few weeks ago.

Every time I have to change my wound dressing, I get confronted by my scars and blobs (which are suppose to be my breasts). And to add insult to injury, I have to massage and moisturize daily.

Sounds like we are in a similar space at the moment, it's all still raw for us. Chemo and surgery is major for the body and mind to deal with .

My breast care nurse says it's completely normal. She told me not to put too much pressure on myself, as it will take some months to adjust to my new self.

We are justified to cry about what a crappy journey this is. Because it is TOTALLY crap. And it has changed us for life. But it will get easier and we just have to keep focused on the future.

As Dory says, 'just keep swimming'. -Finding Nemo ????

I'm going to weekly meditation groups and make sure i walk everyday.

Am sending positive energies xo ??

Hi ScorpionQueen,

I hear you I want to encourage you that you are strong and you will come of this horrible treatment stronger than you already are... 

Art Music all help with our mental well being. 

I did double mastectomy 2012 then 9 months of chemo's that I took allergic reactions to etc then 6 weeks of Radiation .... I have struggled with being at that edge.... Ask for a Mental Health Plan to see a Psychologist who specializes in Oncology patients if you can that allows you up to 10 visits covered by Medicare. I found it has really helped me to be able to discuss the fears etc. It is ok to say I am not coping this is a F**k of a disease that really does affect us in all ways mental physically and emotionally then we add the treatments to that. 

Hugs and kisses 

I hear you cry for help <3

Soldier Crab aka alice

Oh Hun.. Just hang in there...

I know it is horrible being cooped uo indoors and segregated... I have been doing it since 20th May only and feel like it has been an eternity and cannot even behing to imahine after such a long period as the one you have had to dealn with.

It is so understandble that you feel that way and so so so normal... I think that jf it was not bringing you down there would be something wrong with you - had it not made you depressed I would think you were in denial...

I am just glad you are aware of it and how easy it is to slip and am glad that you are doing something about it. Art can be so powerfull to express how you feel and even just routine qork stuff to shake you out of the 'ordinary' day to day drudgery... 

You are doing the right thing...

And if coming out to Kogarah area again please shoot me off a message so if there is any way I can meet up with you guys and buy your lunch nearby on the lovely Brighton shore I would absolutely love it.

There is the best ever Thai place just across the road from the beach and you cannot imagine what having a nice stroll by the beach as well can do for recharging the batteries...

Just hang in there ... 

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Hugs

Jel

Thanks for being so raw and honest, its such an encouragement. My heart breaks for each lovely lady that has shared in this journey, I will be thinking of you and want to encourage you to keep moving forward.

Leila xx