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Washing the grey out of my life....
Day 17 - after double mastectomy
Ok.... I have felt myself slowly slipping down into the abyss... I dig my claws in and hang on.... Inch by inch I wiggle my way back up.. I sit on the edge looking ...
I TOTALLY know what you mean ! I'm still all taped up and in extreme pain from my surgeries a few weeks ago.
Every time I have to change my wound dressing, I get confronted by my scars and blobs (which are suppose to be my breasts). And to add insult to injury, I have to massage and moisturize daily.
Sounds like we are in a similar space at the moment, it's all still raw for us. Chemo and surgery is major for the body and mind to deal with .
My breast care nurse says it's completely normal. She told me not to put too much pressure on myself, as it will take some months to adjust to my new self.
We are justified to cry about what a crappy journey this is. Because it is TOTALLY crap. And it has changed us for life. But it will get easier and we just have to keep focused on the future.
As Dory says, 'just keep swimming'. -Finding Nemo ????
I'm going to weekly meditation groups and make sure i walk everyday.
Am sending positive energies xo ??