The Chemo date is set
I have had the approval from my Oncologist to start my Chemo next week probably the 5th Dec 2012. He said yesterday with a grin "We can start today if you like!" I replied "Are you mad?" I said, I have a dentist clean next Tues and then on same day one more visit to the Endo Surgeon {Dr Slice and Dice) and then I will be ready on Wednesday. He said I could wait until after Christmas, but due to my parents prediction of their only being here for 3 months I thought I should get on with it. You know Im sitting there thinking "This sucks, my Dr is telling how great all the scans are and what a healthy heart I have and how well I am and at 46, the first person to say "Youre still young, in a long time" and now he want to inject me with poison and ruin everything! After all, I dont want instatd menopause, hot flushes, feeling sick, not eating or drinking, ....oh woops, now thats not being very positive is it (smiling). Oh yeh, thats right, "Im so BRAVE" what the hell is that.!!!! All of a sudden Im seeing myself infront of the Governor General having a medal attached to my chest for this Bravery thingy I didnt know I had (still smiling).....Im not that brave, I just dont have a choice. I pray that I have an ok experience, I pray that I dont throw up, I pray that I dont look like hell from a horror movie...Oh and I pray to find that emotion called Bravery, real quick...........Oh and one last thing...this losing your hair thing, I DONT EVEN LIKE MYSELF WITHOUT A FRINGE....(and still smiling) 29th Nov 2012