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NaturalBel
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13 years ago

The Chemo date is set

I have had the approval from my Oncologist to start my Chemo next week probably the 5th Dec 2012.  He said yesterday with a grin "We can start today if you like!"  I replied "Are you mad?"  I said, I have a dentist clean next  Tues and then on same day one more visit to the Endo Surgeon {Dr Slice and Dice) and then I will be ready on Wednesday.  He said I could wait until after Christmas, but due to my parents prediction of their only being here for 3 months I thought I should get on with it.  You know Im sitting there thinking "This sucks, my Dr is telling how great all the scans are and what a healthy heart I have and how well I am and at 46, the first person to say "Youre still young, in a long time"  and now he want to inject me with poison and ruin everything!  After all, I dont want instatd menopause, hot flushes, feeling sick, not eating or  drinking, ....oh woops, now thats not being very positive is it (smiling). Oh yeh, thats right, "Im so BRAVE" what the hell is that.!!!!  All of a sudden Im seeing myself infront of the Governor General having a medal attached to my chest for this Bravery thingy I didnt know I had (still smiling).....Im not that brave, I just dont have a  choice.  I pray that I have an ok experience, I pray that I dont throw up, I pray that I dont look like hell from a horror movie...Oh and I pray to find that emotion called Bravery, real quick...........Oh and one last thing...this losing your hair thing, I DONT EVEN LIKE MYSELF WITHOUT A FRINGE....(and still smiling)  29th Nov 2012 

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  • atashi's avatar
    atashi
    Member
    13 years ago

    Couln't have put it better Annie :) My only side effect was a reaction to the anti-nausea tablet [don't laugh] so I munched on fruit tingles [it works!!!] and the dreaded fatigue [could be from the tabs - maybe]. But, generally, not as bad as what I had thought it would be so hopefully you will be the same - here's sending healing thoughts your way.

    One thing that helped me was keeping up with friends, going for a coffee, just being normal. When you think about it, you will have enough 'chemo' talk so it's great to catch up with normal, everyday stuff. Maybe it will help you too? I hope so . . .

    Take care, keep well and est of luck in the coming days/weeks . . . . .

  • Shines's avatar
    Shines
    Member
    13 years ago
    When your hair grows back it is ever so soft. So remember the positives and take each day as it comes. Listen to your body. If you need to rest do so. Good luck
  • Shines's avatar
    Shines
    Member
    13 years ago
    When your hair grows back it is ever so soft. So remember the positives and take each day as it comes. Listen to your body. If you need to rest do so. Good luck
  • Annie13's avatar
    Annie13
    Member
    13 years ago

    Hey Bel

    I read your post and smiled at the points you were making! I love your line 'Im not that brave, I just dont have a choice'. I get the 'oh, you're so brave' thing all the time and I feel just like you about it. It's not bravery at all, it's simply getting on with life with the hand we've been dealt, and making the most of it.

    I have a positive story to share with you - my chemo side effects were minimal - no sickness, nausea, tiredness. I did lose my hair (which is a little traumatic, but again, you'll manage), but kept eyebrows and eyelashes which was good.

    I bought a fabulous wig, which I can highly recommend doing - it's amazing how much it boosts your self-confidence when you wear it. The one I have is heaps better than what my own hair was too so it's like an upgrade!

    Best of luck with all your treatment - I hope it all goes smoothly for you. :)