Hey Bel
I read your post and smiled at the points you were making! I love your line 'Im not that brave, I just dont have a choice'. I get the 'oh, you're so brave' thing all the time and I feel just like you about it. It's not bravery at all, it's simply getting on with life with the hand we've been dealt, and making the most of it.
I have a positive story to share with you - my chemo side effects were minimal - no sickness, nausea, tiredness. I did lose my hair (which is a little traumatic, but again, you'll manage), but kept eyebrows and eyelashes which was good.
I bought a fabulous wig, which I can highly recommend doing - it's amazing how much it boosts your self-confidence when you wear it. The one I have is heaps better than what my own hair was too so it's like an upgrade!
Best of luck with all your treatment - I hope it all goes smoothly for you. :)