TERRIFIED of Treatment

Dear @KMAC46...as Afraser has said above, please remember that there is more than one member who will try to cheer you on and support you, albeit via the electronic ether. As you yourself also said, each one of us is different, with different strengths, abilities and personalities, never mind social demographics, age, size and general health (or in my case...lack thereof). This is not a competition to establish who trumps who with what or to what degree and the only thing we all have in common is breast cancer....we even have some male members in the group, also with breast cancer. This being the case, I couldn't possibly toss out some grossly insensitive comment which boils down to "get your shit together and move on...I did and so can you..."  I have no prepackaged formula or solution but I do have empathy. I remember the sheer panic and overwhelming sense of doom that I felt when diagnosed in September 2016. My only grandchild, a little boy, was 14 months old at the time, and I was convinced I wouldn't even see Christmas that year. Well the little chap has just turned five and has a baby sister of just over a year. I've had many dramas in between, of the medical variety, but I just keep plodding on, remembering the old question of "How do you eat an elephant?"...answer..."One bite at a time"... so easy to say, but so very much harder to do...especially the gristly bits. We are here, day and night..(check the Night Howls thread) and in the great majority, we are here to hold you up and let you know that you are not alone.