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ScorpionQueen
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10 years ago

Sore and sorry

Hi Troopers!

Said goodbye to my little friend on Sunday, aka "Drainie" .So much better without her hanging from my side, getting caught on things etc.....

Now I'm still swollen and bruising coming out from where the tape was on my dressings. i still have a dressing over the drain site though.

Yesterday went for CT body scan and Bone Scan, while I was in having the bone scan they asked am i sore in my back, hips, knees and feet? I said nothing more than my usual Osteo pain...next minute they are doing a 3D scan of my bones in my hips, knees and feet. That wasn't ordered on the form, I thought...While lying there, feeling rather uncomfortable, especially as the assistant kept touching my right arm! (felt like shouting, what part of don't touch my arm, i have had surgery on that breast and I have neuralgia!) I couldn't help but think of my Dad, he was diagnosed with Prostate cancer in 2009, they cured that with brachytherapy (radioactive seeds into the prostate), but unfortunately on his 6 monthly scan check up, we got the news it had metastasized to his bone, not just a bone, but his whole bloody spine, neck, shoulders and pelvis! I still remember staring at the scan in disbelief! I gathered my self and nursed him until the day he passed 22/8/13. At the same time, my Mother in law had pancreatic cancer, and I was also taking her to her appointments and chemo, transfusions until she was hospitalised and passed 29/2/12....

I thought, why are they doing this scan? Is it routine? Have they spotted something? I'm hoping i don't get that dreaded phone call on Wednesday "the Dr needs to see you"  I'm hoping they were just checking out my Osteoarthritis....praying...hoping...wondering.......again my brain has surrounded me in it's protective fog.....

Love and light for easy recovery and beautiful days...

- Tracy

stay strong|breathe|believe

 

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  • Deanne's avatar
    Deanne
    Member
    10 years ago

    Hope that the results were clear and all of this was just the doctors being very thorough for you Tracy. The first few weeks of this process is always the hardest. It must be even harder because of your Dad. Our family had also lost someone to cancer and it does make it tougher, especially at the start. Once you know what treatment you require and get started you somehow feel more settled with it. Keeping my fingers crossed for you. 

    Deanne xxx

  • ScorpionQueen's avatar
    ScorpionQueen
    Member
    10 years ago

    Thanks Lyn,

    My husband is the worst for it! i yelled to stop asking , what do you think is wrong? and then I felt ever so guilty, He is doing a marvellous job taking care of me and doing all the house hold chores that i can't handle at the moment.

    The thing is i do get it, even when i hadn't been there! I've had my fair share of surgeries, count 10 pretty major ones including two heart...I'm forever telling others that have had surgery or other illnesses that it's a big thing you've been/going through, take your time to rest and recover.

    I'll just smile and nod....but i am also known for telling it how it is...no rainbows and lollipops here.....so they should already  be prepared when they  ask "what's wrong?" !!! Hahaha!

    -Tracy

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    ScorpionQueen
    Member
    10 years ago

    Thanks Deanne,

    I was just left wondering and I hate how the medicos, don;t say anything as to why these tests are performed. My surgeon told me that he was doing them to make sure there was no cancer anywhere else as i have unclear margins and it was in my lymph nodes, hence the panic about my Dad!

    My husband and i left there feeling very uneasy and although the  doctor who does the reporting told us otherwise, you can;t help but worry.....

    My surgeon is calling me today with results (if any) and my Oncology details, then on to the next phase....

    - Tracy

  • lrb_03's avatar
    lrb_03
    Member
    10 years ago

    Hi Tracy. It sure is ok to have down days. We can't be "up" all the time, even for the sake of others. What we're going through IS a big deal, & unless you've been there, you don't get it. Plus the fact that it brought back all those memories. Wow, what a day! And then someone asks what the matter is? Hello???

    Thinking of you, Lyn

  • Deanne's avatar
    Deanne
    Member
    10 years ago

    Hi Tracy

    So sorry that you have been upset by this. I think the scans were the scariest part for me. However I just wanted to let you know that they always ask if you have arthritis or have ever broken a bone etc, it's just part of the standard routine. I have had two bone scans, one when I was diagnosed and another one recently (2 years down the track) because of a suspected stress fracture. Both times they did the coloured 3D images also, so I think this is just routine too.

    Wishing you all the best, hope you are feeling better soon. Deanne xxx

  • Rosetta's avatar
    Rosetta
    Member
    10 years ago

    Tracy, it's a horrible path we travel. I'm happy for you that Dranie is gone. The rollercoaster of emotions I find exhausting, particularly throughout tests & awaiting results. My most painful encounters in the first month after surgery were all the well meaning hugs..... A good cry is sometimes very cleansing, I don't feel good when I bottle things up for too long. Thinking of you ????

  • ScorpionQueen's avatar
    ScorpionQueen
    Member
    10 years ago

    Ahh I see....wish they would tell you the reason though!

    I've made myself upset thinking about my Dad and finally had a good cry! But then I got visitors and had to pull myself together, then got the whats wrong? sad voice questioning... Whats wrong? Well, where do I feckin' begin? LOL!

    Having a pretty down day all round today and feeling really drained...and even though its early days, I'm surprised I feel this way, but i'm going to allow myself days to feel this way, what I (and sadly others) am going through is a BIG deal! 

    So glad I've got this blog to get it out.....

    Hubby has gone for a run in our Hot Rod, I'm not up to it yet, too bouncy and hot, so I'm off to eat a piece of cake while watching the tennis.

    Tomorrow is another day.

    -Tracy

    Stay strong|Breathe|Believe ........ and eat cake! :p

     

     

  • Brenda5's avatar
    Brenda5
    Member
    10 years ago

    It could be what they call staging for chemo? I had to have a second ct scan. Something to do with keeping a close eye on bone density and stuff especially during the hormonal ongoing treatments later on.

    Fingers crossed for you that's all it is.