Shut up world!

Can so relate ?? have read all the replies and all I can say is ditto - it is truly great to be part of such an amazingly loving group of people.

Be kind to yourself ?? sending hugs ??

Oh love, you are being too hard on yourself. You need to allow yourself to feel these feelings as they are all part of it. We all hate feeling like this but I honestly believe that most of us feel like this at some point, particularly through chemo. It's not bloody fair, certainly not easy and definitely a roller coaster. Be kind to yourself. And remember that Rusty adores you no matter what!!!!! You will all survive and get through this. Hang in there. Karen xox

Anger can actually get you through it all. For some reason it adds strength. Not good for those around you but Rusty will be the first to forgive you.

Give yourself a break it is tough. When I used to feel like this my family and friends would tell me to not be so tough on myself. BC turns our lives upside down and our bodies through so much. Take a deep breath and vent away and move on today is another day. Sending you a hug xxx

Yes - the 'joys' of steroids.... know it too well - when I am capable of arguing with and snapping at not just those arround me but could easily argue with the light fixtures and 'bark' at them... So instead I try to zip it and not communicate which usually makes it worse as then am cranky altogether and the omly time I open my mouth is to chew up a poor unsuspecting well meaning person or to burst into a self pitying 'I am a victim - nobody cares for me' woosing ????????

Grumble away my dear.  We get it. As you said, another day or two and the cloud will lift and I know your family gets it - they know it is the bloody meds and chemo drugs and nobody need be forgiving anyone for anything... There is nothing you could be doing differently and I bet that even the stuff you thing you may have done 'wrong' they did not even notice.

Sleep, rest and grumble and snap when you feel like it. No apologies or need for forgivness - be kind to yourself and remember - this is the last time - the last round and counting down so who cares about what stupid drugs make you think and feel in a single passing moment...

They all love you as do we ????????????????

Jel.

I don't think anyone needs to forgive you. I also think you need to be gentle with yourself and give yourself permission to feel angry, upset, human!!!! Otherwise your going to have to change your name to Doris Day!!!! Take care. Xx Cath 

You go for your life hon, just get it out here where you have no fears . , I know you are strong, I always read your posts , so if you want to have a melt down .... Then have one ! Don't murder anyone tho ??  We would all have to come bail you out in our Pink T Shirts  and that would be an hilarious spectacle .... Stay strong hon , and get some good rest , if you want to get really angry , talk to Siri on your phone , she can't even understand you ??  ((()))  ??

I get the depression and cry about everything. But as always this too shall pass and you are stronger than this bitch cancer. Take care and be kind to you. Kath x

Hi 

big hugs to you and I agree with mum2JJ there is nothing to forgive this is a great place to let it all out a lot of great people here all with a lot of love to give to one and all ... Best of everything to you... Hugs xx

Oh hugs to you.  I don't need to forgive you as you haven't done anything wrong.  You are doing the right thing by getting on here and venting.

Forgive yourself.

Big breath..."this to shall pass"

hugs to you.

Paula xxxx