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Scan day freaking sucks......yet again. Probable curse words included.
With only minor trepidation and my shit mostly together I went to clinic today to get my results. I stopped to give a co worker that had just been diagnosed (MOFO BC) a hug and a shoulder to cry on for a bit while we were waiting. I heard my name called and promised her she would get through and I would be happy to help if I could in any way. She thanked me with that smile you put on when you are trying so hard not to burst into tears and your heart is aching as I waltzed on in to the doctors office.
Well the whole thing went sideways and turned into me leaving work in a shaky, teary eyed mess. My goodness this thing still rocks you when least expect it.
Here we go again with another fucking ambiguous result about the mystical eliptical thingamajjigy that has taken up residence in the rogue boob. Said thingy has decided to grow 2mm in 6 months. BIRAIDS score now moved up from a 3 to a 4 and hey lets poke a needle in it this time. This presents a problem. Considering the MRI is still the only machine that can see thingy (again it can't be felt by anyone either) and it's positioning, it is probable that a biopsy can't be done in the MRI machine. Still waiting on an answer for that one.
So do we just poke around in there and try to hit it?? Cut it out or off just for the heck of it?
No body is prepared to say it is anything sinister nor are they prepared to say it's not.
Seriously, can someone please tell me how, for the love of god, you can have 4 MRI's, 4 mammograms and 6 u/sounds in a period of 12 months and still not know what this is or isn't.
So as it sits, back to headlining the MDT on Thursday to get input from group of guru's as quote "my breast don't scan normally". Another targetted u/s on Friday. And wait for an answer on whether the biopsy can be done by MRI.
Waiting waiting waiting yet again. Fuckity fuck fuck. I am sick of this roller coaster. I want to get off and my money back.
Mental status right now = somewhere between zoned out numbness and seriously pissed off.
Strongly considering ostrich tactics at the moment.
Thanks for listening. :/
Well the whole thing went sideways and turned into me leaving work in a shaky, teary eyed mess. My goodness this thing still rocks you when least expect it.
Here we go again with another fucking ambiguous result about the mystical eliptical thingamajjigy that has taken up residence in the rogue boob. Said thingy has decided to grow 2mm in 6 months. BIRAIDS score now moved up from a 3 to a 4 and hey lets poke a needle in it this time. This presents a problem. Considering the MRI is still the only machine that can see thingy (again it can't be felt by anyone either) and it's positioning, it is probable that a biopsy can't be done in the MRI machine. Still waiting on an answer for that one.
So do we just poke around in there and try to hit it?? Cut it out or off just for the heck of it?
No body is prepared to say it is anything sinister nor are they prepared to say it's not.
Seriously, can someone please tell me how, for the love of god, you can have 4 MRI's, 4 mammograms and 6 u/sounds in a period of 12 months and still not know what this is or isn't.
So as it sits, back to headlining the MDT on Thursday to get input from group of guru's as quote "my breast don't scan normally". Another targetted u/s on Friday. And wait for an answer on whether the biopsy can be done by MRI.
Waiting waiting waiting yet again. Fuckity fuck fuck. I am sick of this roller coaster. I want to get off and my money back.
Mental status right now = somewhere between zoned out numbness and seriously pissed off.
Strongly considering ostrich tactics at the moment.
Thanks for listening. :/
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- So glad that it's all over at last. Enjoy your holiday weekend, you have well and truly earnt it girl
- Well done lovely. Holding your shit together through this dehumanising schmozzle is an achievement. Enjoy your break. K xox
- @kezmusc
So very pleased that's all done - have a great holiday break and we all look forward to hearing how you are going! (ie next instalment :)
xxx - OMG! Thank GOD that is all over .... I'd love to have been a fly on the wall to see 'Stupid Nurse's' face with your last comment! LOL .
SO glad it is all over - and great to see that Madame BS's reputation is still intact. Did you get the cake?? Methinks not! :(
Enjoy your weekend - you deserve a WEEK!! xxx - @kezmusc what a huge relief that is all over! Enjoy your much needed time away
- Morning lovlies,
Well thank god that's over with. What a nightmare. aagghh
Sonographer 1.....15 mins just looking for the darn clip. Gulp
Sonographer 2. "I think that's it there" Jeesus "Go get so and so she'll be able to spot it"
Radiologist wanders in and says "Well, you've had lots of nasty biopsies, this should be easier than that" Wrong!!
Radiologist. another 5 mins searching for it.."never mind, if we can't get it this way, we'll do it in the mammogram. Ugghh
Sonographer 3 and radiologist finally think they've got it,
Stupid nurse is trying to distract me by asking if I have already had cancer surgery (obviously missed the scar that was staring her in the face).
By this time all confidence is lost, seriously thinking of bailing on the whole thing and wondering when the cake is going to appear :)
So the theory is if they put the wire from the opposite side straight to the clip is should run right through the middle of the thingy so they can't miss it.
May I just say that trying to push a hookwire needle through scar tissue is just about the most unpleasant thing. There's a whole heap of pushing, shoving and literally pulling my boob from the opposite side towards the needle. First attempt fails and the wire falls out...here we go again.
I seriously thought he was going to put his foot up on the table to get more traction. Obviously pushes past where the local was working and I nearly jump off the table.
By this time zombie mode has disengaged, I'm back and just about had enough of this shit.
Stupid nurse asks how I'm feeling. "I'd rather be poking needles in my fucking eye than be here": She's quiet now.
Finally done with a very long h/wire poking out and taped everywhere to it doesn't fall out again, a quick mammo to check the positioning and off we go 1/2 an hour late for surgery, which means I have to wait for the next slot which is an hour away.
Anyhoo, apart from being pretty black and blue, from what I can see Madame BS has lived up to her reputation. The scar appears quite small and tidy, the rest is a bit hard to see with the dressings but I may not have to sell that kidney after all.
Better scoot, I have a whole shit load of stuff to do before we go away.
Have a great day beautiful people. Lotsa love and thank you so much for all your support as usual.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxox - Thinking of you and praying for the best. Hope you are back here soon with great news xx
- Agree with everyone here @kezmusc - you give us so all so much laughter and joy with your wit and funny ways.
Thinking of you today for the BEST OUTCOME EVER!
xx - Wishing you all the best @kezmusc
- Just given myself a wedgie as a gesture of support. OK, truth is I'm wearing rubbish undies that I'm constantly pulling out of my crack, but the thought is there. Mxx
