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Scan day freaking sucks......yet again. Probable curse words included.
With only minor trepidation and my shit mostly together I went to clinic today to get my results. I stopped to give a co worker that had just been diagnosed (MOFO BC) a hug and a shoulder to cry on for a bit while we were waiting. I heard my name called and promised her she would get through and I would be happy to help if I could in any way. She thanked me with that smile you put on when you are trying so hard not to burst into tears and your heart is aching as I waltzed on in to the doctors office.
Well the whole thing went sideways and turned into me leaving work in a shaky, teary eyed mess. My goodness this thing still rocks you when least expect it.
Here we go again with another fucking ambiguous result about the mystical eliptical thingamajjigy that has taken up residence in the rogue boob. Said thingy has decided to grow 2mm in 6 months. BIRAIDS score now moved up from a 3 to a 4 and hey lets poke a needle in it this time. This presents a problem. Considering the MRI is still the only machine that can see thingy (again it can't be felt by anyone either) and it's positioning, it is probable that a biopsy can't be done in the MRI machine. Still waiting on an answer for that one.
So do we just poke around in there and try to hit it?? Cut it out or off just for the heck of it?
No body is prepared to say it is anything sinister nor are they prepared to say it's not.
Seriously, can someone please tell me how, for the love of god, you can have 4 MRI's, 4 mammograms and 6 u/sounds in a period of 12 months and still not know what this is or isn't.
So as it sits, back to headlining the MDT on Thursday to get input from group of guru's as quote "my breast don't scan normally". Another targetted u/s on Friday. And wait for an answer on whether the biopsy can be done by MRI.
Waiting waiting waiting yet again. Fuckity fuck fuck. I am sick of this roller coaster. I want to get off and my money back.
Mental status right now = somewhere between zoned out numbness and seriously pissed off.
Strongly considering ostrich tactics at the moment.
Thanks for listening. :/
Well the whole thing went sideways and turned into me leaving work in a shaky, teary eyed mess. My goodness this thing still rocks you when least expect it.
Here we go again with another fucking ambiguous result about the mystical eliptical thingamajjigy that has taken up residence in the rogue boob. Said thingy has decided to grow 2mm in 6 months. BIRAIDS score now moved up from a 3 to a 4 and hey lets poke a needle in it this time. This presents a problem. Considering the MRI is still the only machine that can see thingy (again it can't be felt by anyone either) and it's positioning, it is probable that a biopsy can't be done in the MRI machine. Still waiting on an answer for that one.
So do we just poke around in there and try to hit it?? Cut it out or off just for the heck of it?
No body is prepared to say it is anything sinister nor are they prepared to say it's not.
Seriously, can someone please tell me how, for the love of god, you can have 4 MRI's, 4 mammograms and 6 u/sounds in a period of 12 months and still not know what this is or isn't.
So as it sits, back to headlining the MDT on Thursday to get input from group of guru's as quote "my breast don't scan normally". Another targetted u/s on Friday. And wait for an answer on whether the biopsy can be done by MRI.
Waiting waiting waiting yet again. Fuckity fuck fuck. I am sick of this roller coaster. I want to get off and my money back.
Mental status right now = somewhere between zoned out numbness and seriously pissed off.
Strongly considering ostrich tactics at the moment.
Thanks for listening. :/
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- Best wishes @kezmusc. Sorry to hear of your scary "non diagnosis" i hope it settles down and gets sorted soon. You have done so well and done so much for others on this site. Sending love and virtual hugs
- @onemargie,
I think I would make all their lives a lot easier if I did. I must be costing a fortune in scans lol. Good to hear from you lovely. xoxoxox - @kezmusc sounds like you’ve been through a shit storm FFS! You’re poor boob! It’s a bit bloody cliche but I have so much admiration for you. You’re way more Patient and tolerant than me I would of chopped the bloody thing off by now and after reading everything you’ve been through I’m glad I’ve had the double mastectomy. I’m a shit patient as a nurse and definitely would of gone bat shit crazy with all you’ve gone through. Big hugs to you lovely. Hope you enjoyed a glass of bubbly yesterday you sooo bloody deserve it. Xx
- Cripes Kezza... Well that's a good enough answer to relax and enjoy Christmas I reckon. Stay frosty lovely, and have a lovely day. Mwah! K xox 🎅 🎄 🎁 😙
- @kezmusc Wow, they are really making you wait for some definitive answers but good that they havent found anything sinister. yes, it would be nice to get a straight answer so they are really testing you out, you poor thing.
So keep drinking & make sure you enjoy a few bubbles tomorrow as you deserve it my lovely. Hang in there & keep smiling. love & hugs xx - Dear oh dear! At least you can say they are being very thorough!
Now you have the best distraction of all Christmas!
Take care - Yep, nothing nasty is good .... I had some funny things show this time last year that they will continue to keep an eye on .... that is a good thing ....
I hope you can relax by the pool with some Southern Comfort & stay cool @kezmusc (and tho we NEED the rain - I hope you don't get belted with the predicted hail storm this arvo!!)
Take care, buddy - have a great Xmas/New Year xx - Methinks the BS has an attachment issue! But nothing malignant is a good thing so enjoy Christmas!
- I had hoped that you would get a definite answer (a good one, of course).
Have a lovely relaxing Christmas. - Merry xmas lovelies.
Just a quick update on the never ending saga. So after working myself into a bit of a tizz going to get the bx results this morning here's where it's at.
There are no definitely cancerous looking things in the biopsy. So that could have been worse but I would have preferred an answer of it's a benign something or other.
However there are some Atypical epithelial cells. Whatever the heck they are and BS is still not 100% happy with that.
Back for another MRI in the new year to make sure the clip is actually in the thingamy and she hasn't missed it.
Geez Louise.....No wonder I drink.
I hope everyone has a beautiful sparkly day tomorrow and gets thoroughly spoilt.
Lots of love and hugs.
xoxoxoxo
