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Shoonyananda_Sa's avatar
12 years ago

Pain free life when?

Hello lovelies,

 

Am just curious if it is of major importance that I have a pain management plan to come off the panadeine forte?

 

They make me nauseous and I go on the nod like a heroin addict. They are the cause of my total exhaustion and fatigue, so I stopped taking them yesterday. My tummy is not upset today, hooray:)

 

The pain is still with me after morning and lunch panadol osteo tabs. Will life ever go back to being comfortable again? If it does, then how long has it taken the ones who no longer have any pain?

 

Please help as I need some indication of the possibilities. The peripheral neuropathy has invaded my fingers and fingernails after this last and final dose of taxol. Previuously, it was only in my right toes.

 

The nose is still irritated and I am really cranky with the boy in a man's body. I could go to his wife and tell her he is still seeing me but the innocence of his boys would be lost.

 

He hasn't been any help or support during this time. I see no reason for him being in my life anymore.....

 

He drives 7 nights a week as a garbo to pay for the mortgage and whatever his "wife" wants.

I get the "I am too busy or too tired," card.

 

He used to just waltz into my home at 4am, when it was convenient for him. Now the lock will be changed and hopefully he will be gone forever. He uses god against me and I tire of it.

 

God doesn't want me having an affair with a married man, who disrespects and neglects me, especially during this breast canacer journey.

 

The bloke's a mad man. :(

 

I am a mad woman.:)

2 Replies

  • Thanks Julie, I am allergic to Tramadol and abusive, unavailable people. I have an endless source of love to tap into which sees me through the aloneness. We just don't know what the future holds, do we? Throwing my pearls before the swine is a repeated character flaw and I just am unable to find the people who will respect my trusting and accepting them unconditionally. People have seen me as gullible, lost and vulnerable, in the past. I see myself as being kind, compassionate, respectful and supportive. I over relate and give without receiving anything in return. This is why I am so angry with this man. I volunteered for 6 months in the garbage truck, nights, to support him. He just doesn't know how to give me the same support in return. He can't reciprocate. I judge him because when we marry, we judge all other potential partners as excluded and unworthy of our love. He married, excluding me, telling me I am unworthy of his love. He then tells me it's god's will and my samskaras and karma keeping me alone, without my twin flame. He just keeps on manipulating my kindness, so he has been shafted. I feel much better now as I have slept and the pain has become almost nothing. Just needed to express myself. Thanks for replying.:)
  • Everyone's lives are different. Everyone makes different choices. You do not need an person not committed to you and supporting your recovery. I hesitate to give advice ever....but looks like a sound choice. Loneliness makes us sad but now is the time to focus on you and self worth. Re pain. I used Tramadol. Worked for me. Need dr script. Love Julie