My Fears

It is a scary time, I fully understand how you are feeling. I finished chemo early March but I can vividly remember the day when I was told I was having chemo and I completely lost it, nurses ran from everywhere with tissues.I had a lumpectomy with clear margins and the sentinel node was negative so i had assumed no chemo, but I do have a tragic family history and hence the chemo to 'mop up' as they put it. In the end it wasn't as bad as I had expected, mind you, it's a hard slog at times but there is a light at the end of the tunnel. I am currently back at work and loving life in general. You don't have to be brave, there were days when I got onto this webiste and I was pretty negative, and that's ok because that's what I was feeling at that time. Hope everything goes well for you, big hugs, 

Hazel xx

It is a scary time, I fully understand how you are feeling. I finished chemo early March but I can vividly remember the day when I was told I was having chemo and I completely lost it, nurses ran from everywhere with tissues.I had a lumpectomy with clear margins and the sentinel node was negative so i had assumed no chemo, but I do have a tragic family history and hence the chemo to 'mop up' as they put it. In the end it wasn't as bad as I had expected, mind you, it's a hard slog at times but there is a light at the end of the tunnel. I am currently back at work and loving life in general. You don't have to be brave, there were days when I got onto this webiste and I was pretty negative, and that's ok because that's what I was feeling at that time. Hope everything goes well for you, big hugs, 

Hazel xx

Hi.... yours look similar to mine case, I was diagonised last NOV,  done 2 cyst for byopsy, and found 1 with cancer cell 15mm only

At the early stage I was told to have Lumpectomy and Radio, however, the Surgeon randomly took 3 lynph nodes and found 1 of them contain 0.034 micromet (super super ttttttinnnny dot), they proposed me to have 1 more margin excision and the Chemo and so I did.

I gone through all these with Publich Hospital.  I could only say I was very lucky and all things smooth and on schedule.

No doubt lots of needles............especially the date of surgery, I have to arrange a hook wire onto my breast "consiously" from 1 hospital and drive myself to another hospital for surgery..... 

 I gone through 6 dose of drip of chemo and 1 target drip till next March.  I have gone through 6 weeks Radio and now started the Tamoxifen.

I am not brave though....but I am sick.  So they help me to fix it and cure it.

Please dont be afraid, however, you don't need to be brave, sometimes I was tears.... you know, it's normal.  Stay with this network you could get a lot to share and support.  You are not alone.

Take care (big Hugging)

Rosanna

Hi.... yours look similar to mine case, I was diagonised last NOV,  done 2 cyst for byopsy, and found 1 with cancer cell 15mm only

At the early stage I was told to have Lumpectomy and Radio, however, the Surgeon randomly took 3 lynph nodes and found 1 of them contain 0.034 micromet (super super ttttttinnnny dot), they proposed me to have 1 more margin excision and the Chemo and so I did.

I gone through all these with Publich Hospital.  I could only say I was very lucky and all things smooth and on schedule.

No doubt lots of needles............especially the date of surgery, I have to arrange a hook wire onto my breast "consiously" from 1 hospital and drive myself to another hospital for surgery..... 

 I gone through 6 dose of drip of chemo and 1 target drip till next March.  I have gone through 6 weeks Radio and now started the Tamoxifen.

I am not brave though....but I am sick.  So they help me to fix it and cure it.

Please dont be afraid, however, you don't need to be brave, sometimes I was tears.... you know, it's normal.  Stay with this network you could get a lot to share and support.  You are not alone.

Take care (big Hugging)

Rosanna

Welcome to this network where you DON'T have to be brave. You can vent your fears and "tell it like it is".I really feel for you both having to deal with treatment right on Xmas.And Witchiepoo,I'm sorry to hear that the goalposts were moved on you and now you'll have to face chemo.This happens a lot and the waiting on results is also hard to deal with.The full auxiliary node clearance surgery is painful for sure and takes awhile to get back to almost normal- keep up the exercises.I've had bc twice- the first time was in 2003 and then again(same breast)in 2010.I am fine and enjoying life so there is light at the end of a very long,dark tunnel.Sending big hugs to you both.Tonya xx

Your diagnosis sounds alot like mine....in that I was told DCIS of approx 3mm....which after countless tests, biopsies etc turned out to be 38mm invasive cancer within a 50mm DCIS.

I well understand your feelings & fears but you will get past this all & will even sail through chemo etc! I finished chemo at the start of this year & feel great despite mastectomy & currently on Tamoxifen for another 4+ years.

You will find this forum invaluable as everyone is in the same boat...feeling the same way.....experiencing similar thoughts! Just take each day one day at a time & be kind to yourself. You will be fine.....check out my past posts if you want - sending cyber hugs & good wishes your way for tomorrow!

Jenny x