Life is so precious

Just a quick note to say you ladies ROCK...OMG life can get hard. Just keep going...you're all doing great. X

Thankyou for your comments on both issues.

I will keep having laser on the left side, periodically. The right side eventually settled in time after the first surgery, and doing massage and drainage for lymph. 

 Maybe a deep massage also might help. There is a very good therapist at the St Mary's Hospital Lymphoedema clinic. I intend to go in the New year.

Yes, I try and listen to my body and look after it.

We are having a nice summer with earlier, warmer night temps now ( 15 ) and sunny days ( 26), but UV is high too.  I see Rockhampton is having very warm temps and the low pressure off the coast is bringing rough seas and rain.

 Kathy. OX 

Hi Debbie,

Sorry you are missing people you loved. Letting go is hard. I believe we may meet again one day. We shall have to wait and see i guess.

I lost a dear friend a couple of years ago to stomach and liver cancer. She was 10 years older than me, but a great help when I had my children. Her youngest, is one of my  daughter's best friends. I let the tears roll at her funeral at her love of family, life and generous spirit.

 I agree with you. The most important things for me are, my health, my family, then my community. It all became " clear " after BC.

Xmas and New Year always make me nostalgic about things. The year ends, then and a new beginning  in 2012.

I had a SHOCK 2 days ago. My son, who has always been an intelligent, creative and gentle soul; announced he is gay. I do not like that word so much. I prefer it to be used for " happy".

 Well, he is a HOMOSAPIEN.. and sexually likes men.. is how i see it. I have been looking up information about it.

 Nothing seems to shock me now, or my body does not seem to " react " outwardly. I go " oh yeah"...  but my body seems to stay flat lined   _______________ about all sorts of things. I am not sure if it is the fact I went through the " shock " of a diagnosis of BC, or if the chemotherapy has stopped my flight or fight reaction, and other hormones. Perhaps it is the zoloft?

I might get it investigated in the new year. I feel it might be adrenal insufficiency at some level. I certainly get " pooped" easily these days, and have been having chest pain, on exertion. ( does not take much ) The  test for heart  was ok. My cholesetrol is going up, BP is normal. It is a bit perplexing. The pain is quite a discomfort, and unusual for me.

It may have something to do with fact I had radiation to both sides of the chest, and some disruption to  the lymph flow, and  referred pain. If I do not stop when I get the pain; as in walking around the block, I can get a tightness and nausea, or saliva in throat, like just before you vomit. ( most unusual )

When I stop and press on the back neck/ shoulder area.. it eases somewhat.

 I WOULD BE GRATEFUL FOR ANY SUGGESTIONS, OR FROM OTHERS WHO HAVE HAD SIMILAR EXPERIENCES, to both of these things.

Anyway,  I LOVE my son and my wish is for him to find contentment and happiness in his life, and people he can share his passions with, and learn from.

Congratulations Tonya on new photo !

Hi Lee and Leonie too !

 Kathy. OOXX

You are amazing.  I love the way you think!!!!! I am constantly intrigued to hear people say that they disowned their child when they "came out"  How can you stop loving someone??? I assume that your son is the most loving, caring person.  I have known many homosexual people and it doesn't make any difference to me.  If they are nice people - they are nice people.  I don't care about their sexual preferences. (would they care about mine???)  Now about your chest pains.  I have a lot of pain from "blocked lymph drainage"  Because it costs a lot I try to limit my consultations to once a month - until - the pains gets too bad.  This just happened before Xmas and I was in agony.  Maybe doing too much prior to Xmas,hurrying around etc caused it - who knows.  I made an appointment and on the way felt like I was having a heart attack.  Stresss and over doing it really has an impact.  After the intense lymph drainage massage which included deep scar massage I felt like a different person.  I will now be booking in every two weeks at the least. Take good care of your body Kathy.  XLeonie

You are amazing.  I love the way you think!!!!! I am constantly intrigued to hear people say that they disowned their child when they "came out"  How can you stop loving someone??? I assume that your son is the most loving, caring person.  I have known many homosexual people and it doesn't make any difference to me.  If they are nice people - they are nice people.  I don't care about their sexual preferences. (would they care about mine???)  Now about your chest pains.  I have a lot of pain from "blocked lymph drainage"  Because it costs a lot I try to limit my consultations to once a month - until - the pains gets too bad.  This just happened before Xmas and I was in agony.  Maybe doing too much prior to Xmas,hurrying around etc caused it - who knows.  I made an appointment and on the way felt like I was having a heart attack.  Stresss and over doing it really has an impact.  After the intense lymph drainage massage which included deep scar massage I felt like a different person.  I will now be booking in every two weeks at the least. Take good care of your body Kathy.  XLeonie

Hey Debbie,

Yes, so, so sad. I'm very sorry.

We learn so much from those close to us that pass away. Live life to the fullest...although on that one I believe also that giving ourselves a break and taking life a bit easier is also important.

Merry Christmas all the same. Remember all those wonderful times you spent together. Your friend and sister-in-law would want you to remember them with a smile.

XXXXX