It's scary stuff...
I lay in bed awake at night...is this chemo working? Is the Herceptin working? Are the tumours shrinking? ...Stable? Is this cancer spreading?...to my brain? bones? liver? skin?...Or has the whole lo...
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Hello Jane, yes the worrying is pointless I know, but it's natural I guess. I dont dwell on the 'what ifs' which is good, but they are crossing my mind as this first lot of scans get closer. I like your words "give myself permission to stop worrying"...I think I am too hard on myself at times. I must admit, I do like to be in control of things, and cancer is something that is obviously unpredictable and uncontrolable. I struggled a lot with that fact earlier on. You are right about enjoying the present. That is the best mind-set to take I think! I also believe that this is indeed a roller-coaster ride full of mixed emotions, and learning to ride the roller-coaster is a skill to be learned in itself!
Take care,
Celeste?