Thank you so much to all of you that responded to my cry for help, My internet connection went dow yesterday and I couldn't get online so I have only just read your comments. Your comments made me feel that I'm am not alone in this and I just sat here reading them with tears streaming down my face knowing that you are out there.
Yes i do feel like I'm in a freefall at the moment my surgeon who I saw yesterday said this first appt was what the parachute appt. He was right in a way I still feel like I'm falling just a little more slowly.
I have been diaganosed with invasive breast cancer, I am scheduled for surgery on the 27th March he talked about wires and injections of radioactive dyes to check on my nodes and a whole heap more that I am trying to remember my husband was with me but I don't think anything was written down because we were both in such shock.. My surgeon has given me some dvd's to watch ( can't go there yet) and I am being sent for a bi lateral mammogram and ultra sound, left breast only as the lump (though I do have another name for her) is in my right breast, that happenes on the 22nd March.
On my ......wires, dye injections - I am the woman who has to lay down when they take blood because of my needle phobia I just don't know how i'm going to do this.
But you ladies all seem so strong and have coped so I am going to have to draw on your strength and hope I don't embarrass myself by passing out and telling them all to stop.
thank you all again for you words Georgie