Ok I don't know what happen but from the moment I woke up today I felt as though I was hit by a bus I am so physically and mentally exusted .... I suppose it was coming poor tracey she is trying so hard to keep me busy and tring to get me to give up smoking and I know she is right but why is it so damm hard go figure you get told you have cancer you would think it would be a no brainer.... But no my hand still grabs for the packet time and time again.We went for a walk along the beach and then went a did some shopping I was pushing myself but hour by hour I was feeling worse and worse and by the time I got home I had a splitting headache and I don't know why but I constantly feel queasy and I just can't seem to sleep witch makes the days so long .... I get so many great people sending me messages and they all ask me to lash out at them if I need to which is great but that is not something I can do I have to have those sort of discussions with myself lmao ..... (Ok self snap out of it)... QUESTION does anyone have any suggestions on turning brain off by middnight so I can sleep as I think that everything wouldn't hurt so much if I could sleep.... It can't be before midnight cause I still have my wonder bingo to catch up with my groupies lol .... Ok I have had my winge now so that's it for today now it's time for a new day and today will be a good day

I know that it is really good to put pen to paper - like I said on the site to other friends - it is good to "let it out" even if noone replies to the blog. Seems to clear the head a bit. Do you have a Breast Care Nurse who has contacted you. If not try and sus one out. They are really good value "on the ground". You will get lots of info from others on this site as well - if you ask. After you have had your surgery and you have recovered (not sure what type of surgery you are having) it is good to tap into local support groups. I met some wonderful ladies and we eventually formed a dragonboat club. (Can;t get on the river for a while though as it is in huge flood - Fitzroy in Rockhampton) Don't do this alone - we are all here to support you on this journey. I hear from your info that you have great friends as well as family. I know it is hard for them to understand your pain but I'm sure they will lend a shoulder for you to lean on. Scream if you need to - do whatever you want but always try to see the positives. There is life after BC and it is a bloody good life. Nothing will every be the same again - only better because you will see things very differently. Take care and I hope to chat with you again. XLeonie

I sent you another message too, a big long winded one, but dont know where it went????? Technology??? Hopefully you will find it too. Tanya

haha you sound like me i fumble through this technology too ........... so far it hasn't arrived its properly lost in cyber space sharon

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12 Replies

Di_BCNA
Member
15 years ago
Hi Sharon, and welcome to the site. I've been away so it's a bit of a belated welcome .. but still sincere! :)

Yes, it's correct that an Australian postcode is required to register for the site. It helps us minimise the ongoing spam (which mostly originates internationally) which all online networks are subject to. However, we don't really want to block genuine users so we're looking into what's available to open up access a bit more. In the meanwhile, if you have any friends or family who'd like to join who don't have an Aussie postcode, just let me know and we'll work something out (they will be able to see public posts without registering, but will need to register to comment).

Nice to see you here -- just shout if you need a hand with anything.

Di
janny
Member
15 years ago
Hi Shaz, let me know how you get on with the hypnotherapy. I am trying hard but it's so hard to do! Super stressed at the moment waiting for pathology results from my mastectomy and my cigarettes seem like a bit of a friend right now (shame face). I will beat them both - smoking and breast cancer!!

janet
Leonie_Moore
Member
15 years ago
Hi Sharon

Not sure about this. You are best to send a message of assistance to the web administrator. Her name is Di and you will find her on the web home - network posts.XLeonie
sharon_robertso
Member
15 years ago
hi janny

it is very hard to give up but i'm going to try hypnotherapy and see if that works

thanks for your thoughts

shaz
janny
Member
15 years ago
Hi sharon, i'm also struggling really hard with the smoking thing. i had my mastectomy on December 29 and a week long stay in hospital free of cigarettes. Coming home was another thing - and i am really fighting a losing battle at the moment. My doctor also told me when i was diagnosed that giving up smoking was too much - system overload - how much can we deal with at one time! hope you're winning but try not to be overloaded with guilt about it, i am trying to be kind to myself at the moment. i think we all need it.
janny
Member
15 years ago
Hi sharon, i'm also struggling really hard with the smoking thing. i had my mastectomy on December 29 and a week long stay in hospital free of cigarettes. Coming home was another thing - and i am really fighting a losing battle at the moment. My doctor also told me when i was diagnosed that giving up smoking was too much - system overload - how much can we deal with at one time! hope you're winning but try not to be overloaded with guilt about it, i am trying to be kind to myself at the moment. i think we all need it.
sharon_robertso
Member
15 years ago
thanks leoni

its so true i have some wonderful friends and family i have made great friends overseas too and i find it very humbling that people i have never met reach out with a helping hand..... until a few months ago i would never have spoke to someone i didn't know where as now i find now some of them are becoming life long friends ...... i do have a question though some of my friends say they cant get onto my blogg as its only accepts aussie post codes is that right ......... any way thanks for your support

sharon
sharon_robertso
Member
15 years ago
haha you sound like me i fumble through this technology too ........... so far it hasn't arrived its properly lost in cyber space

sharon
sharon_robertso
Member
15 years ago
haha you sound like me i fumble through this technology too ........... so far it hasn't arrived its properly lost in cyber space

sharon
Tanya
Member
15 years ago
I sent you another message too, a big long winded one, but dont know where it went????? Technology??? Hopefully you will find it too.

Tanya