Hi I'm a little scared about my oncologist appointment tomorrow
Hi Ladies,
I've been reading up about chemo not on Dr Google because most of the stuff on the internet isn't true but I've been reading the books from the my journey kit which I always read over and over again but I now focus on the chemo section and it sort of makes me a little fearful of the journey ahead, sometimes I go to sleep and wake up in the morning thinking this is all a bad dream then I see my scars from surgery and I know I'm not dreaming but to me it's still a never ending nightmare today I fear I'm really going to need my friends I can't wait till I take Angelena to school because then I can let out my tears and my despair theirs always someone there to cheer me up I don't feel so alone or in the depths of despair I'm sure those of you who have been where I am right now knows what I'm thinking is there anymore cancer in my nodes if there is my cancer according to my research will get upgraded to stage 3 and that scares me as the doctors haven't officially graded my cancer yet but as things stand right now it's stage 2b early bc if I hear the words early bc one more time I'm going to scream or throw a temper tantrum like a 2 year old and now I can't stand to hear the words at least you caught it early it just makes me angrier if only I could share this with anyone else except my bff and you ladies. That's all for now desperate for a pick me up.
Cyber hugs and positive thoughts to everyone,
Anitaxxx