Haunted house roller coaster

Sounds like you've found a good place.

@arpie @SoldierCrab They had trouble with the herceptin cannula as well but it wasn’t quite as traumatic. I have changed hospitals and the nurses here are very understanding and asked me to explain my trauma situations so far since this whole BC thing started. When I had finished they told me to get checked for PTSD as I should never have had to go through those extreme pain situations and not to be hard on myself. Thank you for the hugs. Much appreciated.

@Blossom1961
oh mate what a day you are having .... 

Hugs 
Soldiercrab

Big hugs coming your way @Blossom1961 ..... what a shit way to start the day.  I hope it gets better for this afternoon xxxx  Take care

Here where I go again. Scan this am but they couldn’t get the needle in for the contrast. The next thing I knew I was crying even though there was no pain at that moment. I hate this traumatic stuff. Off to get my Herceptin infusion this afternoon and my head is not in a good space. Mindfulness not helping right now. Stuff this. I never used to cry and I hate the lack of control I have over it.

"I'm happy to be alive not happy about BC" sums it up perfectly @Smez.

@Kmakm and arpie, Blossum1961, Soilder Crab. Yep after 5yrs of waking up in pain going to bed in pain living in about a constant 5 level of pain going to 8 on a bad day it just becomes part of your life. You adjust you pick things up different from before. You do half the house when you vacuum and half later any excuse lol. People stop asking if you are ok cos you are supposed to be "over it". Yes life goes on we draw back in and cry in silent again and just get in with being a wife a mother a grandmother a cook a cleaner a taxi service a babysitter daycare centre shall i go on haha. I'm happy to be alive not happy about BC. 

@arpie I think humans have great capacity for adjustment. I expect that if the pain doesn't subside, I'll just get used to it and it will be just 'normal' on all but the days when it's really bad. That's what I'm hoping anyway.

hmmmmmm  ..... I wonder how many years it will be before it is not forefront in our brain?  

I am guessing it will only be after you've stopped the tablets & aren't in 24/7 pain anymore??  :(  

So at least 5 years ..... :( 

@Smez I'm still waiting for that time as well... *drums fingers impatiently*