Finished treatment and scared

That's for sure, your mind plays the worst games with you, and then you go into the mode where you want to protect your nearest and dearest. It really sucks. Write down all your questions for the doc prior to getting there, so you can get the answers that you need. In fact, write 2 lists, 1 for you and 1 for the doc, then you get a copy to take home and read. It's always hard to absorb it all at the appointment. Thinking of you with warmest wishes and hope you get some rest xxxx

Thanks tracey
i need to be logical. Had them taken out ff pre cancer and didn't bat an eyelid and I know this one has been there before chemo but u skyways think the worst 

It's surprising how quickly the time passes between appointments. Use it as time to rest and get your thoughts and questions together. It's an awful time for you, feeling for you and sending a big cuddle, Trace xx

Thanks ladies for it removed on Friday ouch! Results back in 10 days but my dr said he is sure it's a small bcc as I've had them removed before cancer and didn't think anything of it! Now everything is a drama but im try to be logical. I a a redhead have had lots of burns on my neck and I know it was there when I was going thru chemo. The worst part is waiting!

Kath, honestly Im 16 months post chemo and I still have quite a few side effects but it does get better. You know after my first diagnosis I never dreamed it would come back, I got on with my life 4yrs and yes worried at every yearly checkup but that was all. I too now am worried of the yearly checkup because Ive done the recurrence and it ripped my world apart it was so much worse on every level to the first diagnosis. But you know what??? I REFUSE to allow this now to define me..Ive become cautious and fragile...nothing like I was. I hardly go out anymore, I seek my own company and Im so aware of it all. Im now getting in to exercise and it feels good! post my mastectomy/diep flap recon. But I REFUSE to let this define my life another shitty minute! I am clear coming up 2 years clear and Im going to grab life by the BALLS! because all I have is right now...every beautiful minute is bliss its when I project or start worrying I lose this moment. NO MORE! Time will absolutely give you confidence, but for me too its about the strength that Ive gained over the past 6yrs knowing I can deal with whatever comes...I cant change anything else but how I am.

So nurture YOU, is so key, do the things you love, be with the people that lift you up and you will find your way I promise..and no none of it is easy I completely agree...but hey!! Lets Live, Laugh and Love!!! 

xx Melinda 

Hey Kath, glad you got it checked and removed, understand how you feel, every ache I get I can't help but think its gone elsewhere, hard not to think along these lines but unfortunately you can't stop these thoughts :(

It's awful isn't it? Just the smallest things! Scratchedcmy neck while on chemo and it took ages to heal was a small sore for quite a while. Was rubbing my neck yesterday and scratched at the dry skin again and made it bleed a little do what's the first thing I think of skin met!!!!!  Can't think me touching things and aggravating it! Have to think worst. See scenario all the time! Bloody over it!

i keep thinking of worse case scenario too, some of the stuff I have read does my head in, my breast surgeon had told me to stop reading as each person is different, yeah easy said than done! 

Sounds pretty normal to me. I tend to put it in the background until an appointment comes due, then it's a struggle to not be concerned about the outcome. Sending you a big cuddle, Trace xx