Finished treatment and scared

Kath, honestly Im 16 months post chemo and I still have quite a few side effects but it does get better. You know after my first diagnosis I never dreamed it would come back, I got on with my life 4yrs and yes worried at every yearly checkup but that was all. I too now am worried of the yearly checkup because Ive done the recurrence and it ripped my world apart it was so much worse on every level to the first diagnosis. But you know what??? I REFUSE to allow this now to define me..Ive become cautious and fragile...nothing like I was. I hardly go out anymore, I seek my own company and Im so aware of it all. Im now getting in to exercise and it feels good! post my mastectomy/diep flap recon. But I REFUSE to let this define my life another shitty minute! I am clear coming up 2 years clear and Im going to grab life by the BALLS! because all I have is right now...every beautiful minute is bliss its when I project or start worrying I lose this moment. NO MORE! Time will absolutely give you confidence, but for me too its about the strength that Ive gained over the past 6yrs knowing I can deal with whatever comes...I cant change anything else but how I am.

So nurture YOU, is so key, do the things you love, be with the people that lift you up and you will find your way I promise..and no none of it is easy I completely agree...but hey!! Lets Live, Laugh and Love!!! 

xx Melinda