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FINALLY! - the tears have flowed
Morning Troopers!
As you all know it gets tiresome sending a million text messages and saying the same thing over and over, and although I didn't want to initially, I have decided to create a Facebook page for my family and friends to keep up to date with my experience.
https://www.facebook.com/An-ordinary-womans-extraordinary-experience-755583577912529/?ref=hl
My friends are glad i have done this too! Feel free to follow if you like!
Today's blog from my page...
Had a great sleep! ....OK, it was pain killer induced ;p
A friend asked me earlier in the month, so have you cried yet? I said actually no, I've been too busy with appointments etc! Mind you I am on the edge nearly every day, but usually pull myself back together with a deep breath and a 'stay strong Tracy'.
Well last night I had a good cry, I looked in the mirror at my scars, at my dark circled eyes and my yucky, grey speckled, un-dyed hair and down the tears fell.....Holy crap! I thought, this is just the beginning and I'm not going to lie, I'm scared....scared of the unknown, scared of the treatments, scared of it all!
As I cried In the arms of my man, I told him all of that....he replied we are in this together, he's got my back, we'll be OK.....
He's been amazing, taking over the household duties, shopping and even cooking dinners from scratch!.. He still needs a bit more training on how to fold the towels though! Hahaha!
Yes, I'm going to have days when I'm angry at the world, when I want to scream and punch things, but hopefully most days will be light and easy to get through....I know I have an awesome team beside me, an amazing support network all round, and that is encouraging enough for me to get up every day with a smile on my face...
So today, I have woken up with a smile on my face, knowing together we can get through anything.....I love you to bits, Yes, we are an awesome team!
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All good!
Hope you are sailing along smoothly....
Hugs
- Tracy
Tracy its my personal page so its only the album journal thats public. :) I think we are on similar paths :)
Thank you Donna!
I tried to like and follow your page but can't? but well done! Yes I am a big believer in being real about things and it does get me into trouble sometimes, but like you I have told everyone if they don't like what they see or hear....don;t follow! You cannot candy coat this! I think its so important to let people see it form all perspectives..as my friend said the good, the bad and the ugly!
It seems we are at similar stages in our experience, and reading your story so far has been inspirational too!
Love and light for easy recovery and beautiful days....
- Tracy
DITTO DITTO DITTO... gee you and I think alike. I created a public album on my facebook page once I'd told the close family and closest of friends. I couldnt handle the anxiety each time I steeled myself to tell friends and I'm a big believer in the power of facebook when used positively. My horse club have long been supporters of breast cancer awareness and girls night in, and I thought to myself, well, if I have to go through this then I'm going to use it as a learning/teaching experience for others. At our club sign on day and leading up to my surgery last Thursday, I have had probably about 30 women of all ages with their hand in my bra feeling my cancerous lump. I wanted them to know how easily I nearly dismissed it and how insignificant it felt.
My scars are starting to heal, the bruising is very pretty in colour and my hair is getting greyer by the day. I've decided not to colour it due to all the chemicals I've had already and the ones to come.
You are an inspiration. Keep the truth and that smile up front :)
https://www.facebook.com/donna.fischer.35/media_set?set=a.10206879802931106.1158180204&;type=3
Thanks Christine!
My hubby hates it when i cry and vice versa. We have had so much happen to us over the last 7 years, it really is ridiculous! and now this! He is my best friend, the only one who has really stuck by me, when every one else has ran!
I've known him since we were 13, been married to him for 26 years this year....and I can;t imagine life without him.... It's good to let them know they are important, this is affecting them too! and me being me will always worry about everyone else......that why sometimes people get shocked when they see me upset or not 100%, It's ME usually running after everyone else! so they aren't used to seeing me that way...
I have had my days where I don;t want to talk or go anywhere and that's OK.....the good, the bad and the ugly will happen and I'll deal with each as they appear....
xx
I think Facebook can be an invaluable tool for such things...and yes you may get weird requests, but just delete them...you can also choose for the page to be seen by your own country only?......It's good to write things down, a good release.....My friends and family are very happy I have made my page, and for some reason it wouldn't let me make it a group, so a page it is......I'm sorry to hear that your are so sore, i have that stage to look forward too! Arrgh! it totally sucks, but we must endure it to beat this bitch!
Sending you love and light foe easy recovery and beautiful days...
Xx
Hugs received Inkpetal!
xx
Thanks AndiJ
Yes I've realised it's only been 3 days since my second surgery! It seems like sooo long ago my diagnosis turned my world upside down. Yep, one day at a time, but those on days can seem to go on forever!
Yes Brenda,
I find writing helps a lot. Chin up and soldier on!
Thanks Marlee,
I am trying to keep it lighthearted while truthful. I have already learnt that people EXPECT you to have a smile on your face every single minute!
Trying to keep that smile on mine as much as possible though..
