Feeling sorry and horrible

@Christabel03 I just had 1 session counselling before the chemo. I thought I was quite prepared for the treatment coming but now that I have been through once. It's really mentally hard to go into 2nd cycle. It really scares me. I wish I am as brave as you and like other BC warriors.

@Afraser I did call up oncology dept to tell them about my symptoms and they mentioned it's the side effect so hopefully it will get better over the weekend. I guess we need counselling on the emotional impacts on our family members too. I guess my husband is feeling helpless seeing me in such state and he wants to make me feel better asap. 

Hi @Siewli

I remember feeling this way as well when I started with AC last year. There were many times I didn't want to have the chemo and many times I didn't know how on earth I was ever going to get through it. I don't know how we do it but somehow we just do. You will surprise yourself at just how strong you are and how you just keep on going. You really do just keep putting one foot in front of the other and you keep getting up each day and keep turning up for treatment and you just keep going. I know it might not seem like it right now, but you will. 

I started having some counselling about two weeks after diagnosis which really helped me in the beginning too. If you find you are really struggling that might be a good option to explore. 

Sending you huge hugs Siewli xx

@Siewli

Have you talked to anyone about your symptoms? It may be possible to alleviate them, it’s certainly worth trying. Do you have a breast care nurse? Or oncology nurses at your day treatment centre may be able to help too. You may also wish to talk to
a counsellor, it can be helpful to talk to someone outside your immediate family/friend circle about how you are feeling. Cancer and treatment are not exactly morale building, most of us can do with a bit of help from someone experienced on the way. Take care.